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This world we live in
has become crazier...
where tradition... values & morals
have been eroded ever so faster...
It's up to each of us
to hold faith and set anchor
to the core that has shaped us better...
So we can without hesitation and shame...
celebrate spiritual holidays like CHRISTmas
and this Blessed EASTER ...
For whatever changes life can bring ,
to unwaveringly keep the same...
those things worth cherishing ... worth standing for...
according to their true essence,
without hesitation or regret, evermore ...

Even though I've lived through my own lot ...
Tried, loved ... and lost several times,
though broken down ... but irreparably not ...

And yet , it amazes me still ,
at this my age ...
Seeing your pectorals wiggle,
my eyes just can't disengage ...
Can't help but let out some involuntary giggle
like I would have done
when I was decades younger and single ...

Still, I'm glad there remains
a bit of that girlish naivity that shows ...
Not hardened and embittered,
but can still with candidness
curl up my toes ...

Perhaps it contributes
to not really looking my age,
who knows ...?
I'm just somewhat glad I can laugh silly
and not worried that it shows ....

I grew up on Mills & Boon
and Barbara Cartland's romance pocketbooks ...
Then loved the romance films
like GHOST and more recently, The Notebook...
My last ever crush when I turned into my late 50's
became Viggo Mortensen
from HIDALGO and RETURN OF THE KING
from that ever so loved trilogy Lord of the Rings ...
Viggo's Prince Aragorn became
my more realistic knight in shining armor & hero ,
no superhuman powers but
with the qualities of The One , all in a row ...
Determined, with a loving heart,
in the face of fear still brave,
with weather beaten good looks,
the kind who ... (like Arwen , his love interest in the same movie) ,
I can love to my grave ...

Late in life, I unexpectedly started to write poems
of romance & sensual intimacy ...
In that way, I am writing my heart's love songs
whether happily or tainted with melancholy ...
I embrace it all
for I want my verses to reflect me , always truthfully ...
But admittedly so,
after all the pocketbook romances, movies,
and now my poems that I can share & show ...
I yearn so much for my own life to give birth
to its real love story that all this waiting for is worth ...
And at this very moment in my life, I truly feel
that I want YOU to be the one
to make that last love story of mine finally real ...

That whatever else can be dealt with,
for it feels we fit so well like that proverbial glove ...
I feel no apprehension ... crippling hesitation...
or nagging doubt...
What there is ... is the gut feeling
that you have what it takes
to fill in everything that, all this time,
I have, unfortunately, gone without ...

I want that somebody who'll be the first to support me,
protect ... defend ..... console me ...
Not the first one to emotionally hurt me ...
demean me... debase me...
just because I dont meet exacting expectations...
not up to par with one's "taste"...
And thereafter , seemingly punched in the gut
before getting thrown off the curb..
made me feel ... for one brief moment ...
like a crumpled piece of waste ...

It perplexes me how somebody can hurt
the one they supposedly love..
when I would have thrown myself infront
to protect him from any peril thereof...
Pointless to ask " how" or "why" ...
no any reshoot possible...
no words said nor deed done deletable
to prevent the tears
already shed and now dry...

I have learned that while giving / sharing
most of my love & heart to one I love...
wisest to save enough for SELF-RESPECT ,
to cushion any hurt ...
if ever that ship hits the rocks
and gets tragically wrecked ...
A partner should be one's rock & safe haven ...
the very first one to care , shield and defend
instead of the ego ruining it to a sorry end ...

This day's celebrated only once every year...
Some look forward to it , while others
may feel a good dose of dread or fear ...
But undeniably, when it's here...
time to spread some love
and , even if virtual only,
to each and every nearest... a big hug...
Instead of merely giving it a shrug,
and say " Bah, humbug !!!" ...

May the tickboxes in your wishlist
be greatly reduced this coming new year...
May it be more bountiful
with what is genuinely best for you,
as your wellbeing is
precious & most dear ...
And may your life be in an even better place
with whoever & wherever
towards your destiny
the winds of fate will steer ....
All these and more,
I wish for you ... with intentions
wellmeant ... heartfelt ... and sincere ...

Somebody like you,
is who I'd want to be with forever ...
Somebody like you
is who I wish to make my days
more meaningful , colorful, and richer ...

Somebody like you
is definitely who I desire
to carve a trail of love and lust for each other ...
that would remain burning hot to the touch
from now to whenever ...

Somebody like you
is the one who can love me for who I am ...
Who can gladly take and appreciate
all the love, devotion , and care
that I will so selflessly, with you, share ...

Some people we meet are not meant to stay ...
Some persons we encounter only linger for awhile ...
But there are those exceptions
that may come our way ...
Somebody like you
with whom I can think in terms of forevermore ...
with whom I can see and feel
that rare elusive bond & connection
that reminds us of what true Love
is all about and for ...

Wouldn't it feel like Christmas
for each day that we get to live together ...?
After all, it's not so much the date that matters,
but the spirit of love, sharing, and joy
we will share with and give to each other ...

Wouldn't it always be like Christmas
when we put into words
how we feel for one another... ?
As if, every time,
hearing the Christmas Carols
when with our parents and siblings we used to gather ...
The ones we listened to as children
and appreciated even more as we grew older ...

Wouldn't it feel like Christmas ...
with every manifest of affection and love,
even if simple and nothing grand ...
That's not what really matters,
for each would still be like a precious present
opened on Christmas day, over and over ...
And through the years to come,
would just utterly become better and stronger ,
as we prove and show
we'll always be there for each other ...

To this song, amongst some others,
will you take my hand and dance with me ?
To feel your cheek against mine,
to graze your skin all over my own, Sweetie,
as you whisper love's timeless endearments
as sweet and deep as aged red wine ...

Will you dance with me slowly,
.... as you gently pull me closer...?
As I feel your beating heart so near,
when my own starts to flutter ever so faster ...

Will you dance with me
as you become my dearest Darling ... ?
When I sometimes will
that I could make Time stand still,
and just bask in your loving
which to the deepest part of me
blesses with indescribable thrill ...

Will you dance with me to this song
and some more other ...
so through the years , this flame in my heart
will not flicker out but, instead,
grow all the more stronger ...
So as I live through my life's remaining chapter,
I can put a period to its last sentence
with the sketch of a heart , in memory of my times
with my dearly beloved lover & partner ....

To finally just let Life
move on & flower ...
For to peg my happiness
with finding someone right
is really not wholly
within my power ...

So many variables out there,
known & unknown...
that my quest for Love's happiness
been just about so difficult
to have & own ...

I am but one ... and just human...
More passing years
I slowly gain ...
And yet I determinedly will it,
that life be & remain
productive and meaningful ...
To still , somehow,
gather as many memories,
happy and beautiful ...
So I can write
my remaining chapters
with pages that warmly glow ...
from all the unforgettable
good experiences
I would have been blessed to know ...

And that is my own leap of faith ...
To shed the sadness
behind the loneliness
that me bathes ...
By living with renewed purpose ...
By instead letting Love
find its own way to me
in due course ...
By ceasing to pine for something
that seemingly keeps out of reach
and then leaves me wanting ...

For however my life takes shape,
I feel an obligation
I cannot escape ...
A duty to myself ,
to live it as best I can ,
with meaning & substance....
That is my plan ...

But at the end of the day,
I have to admit and say ...
I'll always recognize & appreciate the power of Love
to transform
one's life & own person ....
To make it glow
with those twinkling stars
for all the right reasons ...
To have someone to laugh with
and not just by myself smile ...
To be with me ...
life's joys to celebrate ,
and not just alone
to enjoy the while ...

The romantic ingrained in me
will always keep some wish alive
that "he" exists
somewhere out there
for me to someday see ...
And that maybe
there will come that time
when "I" , once more,
will become a "We" ...

How indeed fragile and precious life is ...
A thing that covid, whether we like it or not,
has emphasized and brought out to the fore....
One day here then, all too,quickly ,gone tomorrow...
ourself or a precious someone , gone forevermore...
Which makes it obviously important
that we value life while we can
and with our heart, let our loved ones know...
For all these can be gone
almost in the blink of an eye ,
without ever fully comprehending about the why...
So every chance we can,
let us take it to say, do, and show
how much we appreciate the life we have and know ,
with all its blessings and challenges
and all the "for better or for worse" changes ...
How much we love the people closest to us ,
who have been there through the passing of time ,
through all kinds of weather ...
stormy or fine ...

What does it matter what I want
if I can't have it anyway...
Because to keep on wanting something
is one more good reason
to wake up with hope every morning...
Because to live but stop wanting anything
is almost akin to cease on truly living ...
to surrender to the challenges of life,
and go through it without meaning ...


Some who may suffer the void of loneliness may say...
What does it matter what I want
if I cant have it anyway ...?
But then, perhaps not just yet...
maybe later when the time is right..
with the right person
so no more sadness & regret ...

I feel, as long as you believe
your heart's in the right place
and unselfishly caring ...
Regardless of the empty space beside you...
it DOES matter what you want
as long as you know, deep in you,
that you're truly deserving
in the same measure
you can give back all that loving ....