jaysone1 Poetry (14)

spending time with people you dont like

doing things that just dont feel right

when you cant resist all you best

a burning quest nun the less

a look iside comform to hide

a moment in time too bright moment subside

return unwind eternal shine mind

never behind the shadow hold wide

the legacy of lifes ride

Gone we forget
Nothing matters
Heart content

One side cloaked
Waiting in distract
Never set

Holding
My friend the hate
Alone we met

Begin the journey
Remember old feeling

Destiny hide
In mind
Crush I resign

Forced path
Give up escape

Till when the next
I long to forget

Knowing why
I want to cry

Vision in eye
Persistent more to try

Deny the mind think blind
When time young kind

Struggle through fire
Inner belief growing higher

Pulls closer they admire
Destiny perpetual desire

Future stories told
Inescapable the hold

Amazing I know
Energy said to grow

Feeling a step untold
Trust in self guts behold

Remember inside
Any moment meaning collide

Emotion override
Tenacity set decide

Begin a stride
Dreams undenied

Over under everywhere
The sense of peace suds bubbles gives liquid care
Invisible body feeling it there

From thin air
Undeniable mist feeds memory generations prepare
Helpless encouraged full figure seconds plenty to share

Infecting soft smiles turning forced duty
Together unbound the harmony tone found acutely
A moment of silent burying life troubles in mutiny

Seeing familiar faces reading each hair
Understanding every stare
Build connection we bare a split second to share

Happy a force shields a cause
In shame a lasting stain covered by gauze
Hide face teardrops forge remorse

Life underground a meaning unwound
Ending my lessons in time echo found
Knowing never owning flowing to rest safely sound

Feeling it loom
Impending doom

Holding
Not knowing

Controlling
By molding

The shaming, maiming the blaming
Life shadow is waning

See future fading
Cursed burden containing

Close more comes
Filling the heart disabling the lungs

Blaming and shaking
Never show the hating

Humble he stumbles the world at stake
Man faces his making in its wake

Lost inside a tide
Rushing stampede look to hide

Nothing to try
Lie pain and sigh

Hit and bash another one smash
A second peace, fleeting dash

Last words unspoken
The mind left behind broken

In vain a claim lips blame but tame
Now all has gone the soul a slain

With a nod and stare shell hear no care
Leaving to fair into nowhere an existence cutout never there

The feeling
Familiar

Our life
Part of us

This can’t be

Break free
A man I am, inner me

Ultimately foresee
In him I seek closure from tyranny

Louder than before
Standing tall no more

Words fall
Hear whisper call

Accept is the key

Let go is the lock

Together they open doors

I call for my mother
Crying, shouting frozen in place

Its dark, no one answers
I’m scared, I need help

I see my father
Next to me

He fills the bed
His back towards me

I can smell him
Hairy broad

This comforts me
I feel safe

I am awake
Not scared anymore

Anger
Depression

What’s In your mind
I need to know

Get out of mine

Do you feel the same
Hope so, don’t think so

Smiling and laughing on face book

Why so much to me
Why so one sided

The age the stature
The looks
The body
My performance

Phantom phone and text
In my mind it excites

Back to reality
Gone
Never coming back

Phone deadly silent
I need
Wait for days

I don’t need

I’m still waiting
Please come back

Where are you
My reflection

No end in sight

Is anybody out there
There there…

What’s wrong with me
This must be

Can’t see beyond Lee
Can anybody help me

Strong I must be
Hope can’t see

Does anyone love me
It can’t be

Look to see
Hidden me

Somebody see
I’m lost ultimately

To be
Lonely

Whatever has happened was supposed to happen

Whatever will happen must happen

Make it happen

I’m at the gate
Waiting, bright is the house

On the boundary I lean
Seeing the happy, smiling people at home

Does anyone notice, I’m calling
Was I ever there

Here I am in the dark, silent
please

I’m cold, my legs getting tired

How much longer can I stand
Alone looking in

Does anybody see me
What’s wrong with me

I would like to say hello
My voice is gone

It’s been so long
They’ve moved on

Forgotten