ecm1013 Poetry (68)

There's a little black spot inside of the hole
The little black hole that's consumed my soul
There's a little black part inside of my heart
My little black heart's been torn apart
There's a broken place inside of my head
Makes me feel alive, makes me feel like I'm dead
There's a happy dead soul that hides in me
That knows I'm a slave and it set me free

Life repeats a pattern like a maze
While a straight line labyrinth races us towards the grave
Sacrifice our souls for society
Born as a slave, not who we're meant to be
Work ourselves into bad health
Too old and tired to care for ourselves
But I'm not asking you to believe in me
Because I'm not the one who can set you free

All these things come into question
And all good deeds end in bad intentions

I have a forest
I want to give to you
Where the wind sings your name
In words whispered in dew
Where the trees are dead
Because you never stay
Where the flowers loose their color
And then just wilt away

I have an ocean
That I want to give to you
Where the sea is dried up
Leaving only salt for my wounds
Where the dolphins are silent
And the waves have died
Where the moon
Can no longer affect it's tide

I have a desert
That I keep for me
Where no one belongs
Because there is nothing to see
Where I can do no wrong
Because it's only me
Where the days drag on and on
Long and empty

I live in s place where the sun never rises
No you'll never see a new dawn break
When I wake up it's never a new morning
'Cause I live in a place where the sun never rises

Where the stars will never die
Where the universe hides no lies
Where I'm allowed to fly
I swear I've never been so high

Yeah I'm so high I can see my body
Lying on the ground peacefully
From a place where I can never hurt nobody
Where no one can ever hurt me

I live in a place where the sun never rises
It's a nice quiet place without any suprises
I Like my little place where the sun never rises
'Cause no one can hide behind there diguises

On a single woven web
she climbs down by her feet
Something in her head
tells her she needs something more to eat
That's when she noticed me
in the corner of my room
It didn't take her long
'til she spun me into her cocoon
I was really frightened
I was scared to death
It felt like I was dying
when I began running out of breath
The more that I struggled
the more I felt paralyzed
As she began crawling on me
heading straight for my eyes
That's when I noticed
she was giving birth to her young
And with a mothers grace
gently placed them underneath my tongue
I just gave in
there was no fighting back
My mind was wearing thin
and my eyes were turning black
As I came too
I could no longer feel her eggs
But as I began to move
I was walking on eight creepy leggs
On a single woven web
climbing down by my feet
Something in my head
tells me I need something more to eat

Does anyone really understand
Anything about emotion
It seems love has gone to hide
And no one remembers devotion
In a world where screming
Is so often heard
And forever
Has become a 4-letter words
Wise advice will say
Listen to your head
Because a heart can break
If followed instead
And with your mind racing
Conflicting thought spin and dance
Because your heart is saying
Take this one last chance
And it's been so long
Since passion has accompanied a kiss
That your heart surrenders
Convincing your head
It's worth the risk
And now you look to me
To catch you when you fall
And to keep your heart in one peice
But that isn't going to be hard at all

Hit me
Beat me
Rip out my hair
Burn me
Break me
I don't even care
But love me

Curse me
Laugh at me
Force me in my home
Bruise me
Bleed me
Rip my skin from the bone
But love me

Pain me
Drain me
Nail me to the floor
Freeze me
Leave me
Until I beg for more
But love me

Because you never have before

Silent chaos of conscious thought
On what serenity I have not
Retired long from lovers day
Doomed to dwell in dark dismay

I lost my face
To the darkening sky
And with no eyes
I had no tears to cry

And with no lips
To kiss too soon
And fall too quick
In love with the moon

And in my heart
Beat the flame
To know too true
To never know her name

I found my face
In her wondering eyes
Her secret place
And I began to cry

I emptied my life into your heart
But you can't distinguish between love and fear
And as you make love to yourself
I barely survived on my falling tears

I emptied my soul to give you room inside
Betrayed my beliefs and sought faith in above
I promised I'd live I promised I'd die
You promise to teach me the pain of love

So call my name
and scream for me
Deprive me of anything
that could set me free
Open my veins
and bleed of me
Burn my heart
and feed from me

I emptied my fear into your hands
Weak and trembling with deceit
With trust I knew I should have never had
A servant to your whims a victim of your conceit

I emptied my love into your hate
Fully aware of my fear to leave
I opened your heart and did not hesitate
To lay by you without intention to grieve

So call my name
and scream to me
Close your eyes
and let me set you free
Open your veins
and bleed for me
Drain your heart
and die for me

I am the king of the unwanted
That is the name I gave to me
I have everything that I need
With the broken promises you made to me

I am the king of waiting alone
The front porch step has become my throne
Where I wait for you patiently
Since you promised you would come back for me

And you lie for what you lack
Gave me the world only to take it back
And you lie for what you lack
I still feel my heart but only where it's cracked

I am the king of the left behind
Search for hours and all you'll find
In my kingdom there's no one else
Because you don't love me more than you love yourself

And you lie for what you lack
Your the reason my heart turned black
And you lie for what you lack
Took my heart away and you can never have it back

All I have is time
And an empty exsitence
To occupy my mind

All I have are empty spaces
Lining the walls with a few chosen faces

Will I ever be
Anything
But lonely

Will I ever feel loved again
Like the morning sun shining my face
Or will I die alone
In my own dark and cold embrace

Will I ever silence the noise in my head
Can I ever escape that screaming
Will I ever speak out loud again
As if I'm talking to another human being

Is it worth hoping that I'll find a friend
Is it worth waiting to see the outcome in the end
Or should I never open my eyes so I can't see
That the only thing I'll ever have is me

I said goodnight
To the flower I tried to dry
Before the moon was up to full light
I tried to lie
Down beside myself
After I tried to make you feel beautiful

I don't have the time
To wait for the end of my life

I touched your eyes
Made your pedals cry with dew
I can't realize the nights not saving you
Under the ground
I wait for an angle to sing
As you hang down I feel your breath upon my wing

I can't help you anymore
If you don't feel beautiful

To my surprise
Sunlight fell all around
To my demise without making any sound
I still hold on
Because you make me feel
When I look at you and you feel beautiful

I don't have the time
To wait for the rest of my life