candykid Poetry (58)

If all the sharp stars, fell down from up high, from spaces beyond deep blue skies...
Would you even try, to catch at least one, or stare glaring as each star dies?...
Might you doubt that I, care not for my sight, I'd stare at the sky until you...
View blue's truest blues, through night's true blue hues, bright minds sometime see more than eyes...

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Dark skies display stars, honed by the Sun's rays, sight gone, yet now I can see...
More clear than I ever, I pray that you never, stop shining your light down on me...
At times and on days, in ways brightly blaze, star-points pierce through the night's shades...
And I've felt the pain of your stars from the start, sharp blades fiercely pierce while they play....

These sins of mine, persist with time, consisting of bad thoughts...
Then transfer to, actions untrue, just look what I have taught...
I brought truths not, then fought the fight, I ought not fight no more...
I might bring light, laced with pure dark... sick darkness I abhor...

At times it seems, serene in dreams, some dreams can open doors...
Revealing scenes, deep in between, these things should not be seen...
And while it's true, He suffered too, that I might suffer not...
Well I was taught, to be like Him...let me abide with You....

I’ve played with glass marbles, they’re black as black gets...
Cracked down their middles....and right through their backs...
Chained to long nights backed with painful cold-sweats...
I’ll bet that these pains are the best I’ve met yet...

Although I do know, though I don’t......will I grow?...
The best of me.....that person I’ve never known...
And while cracks remain, time has maintained what’s stained...
Strained cracks in black glass back and reaps what’s been sown....

A thermal eruption of internal emotion...
Bask in this white hot fire and ocean...
True love unrefined...
Substance redesigned...
A cosmic expression..
Of total devotion...

The love that I have for you...
Is hotter than the center of the sun...
Defying description,
Enhancing the sum,
Our two souls ignite,
And fuse into one....

If this was your last day to live on this Earth...
Just what would you do? Dwell on your self-worth?...
Or would you curse God while expecting the worst?...
Perhaps you would live like you've wanted since birth...

We entered this world innocent, yet were pure...
I'm sure the allures have secured and ensured...
Such cures for the pains you've endured went unheard...
Or so it seems....incurred dreams seem so blurred...

I'm saddened distractions caused such bad reactions...
If you only knew the true love and compassion...
He drew you, then grew you, He knew what you'd do...
I've known this for some time.....it's time you do too.....

Each semester my Professor teaches words that are clever...
And whether the pleasure reaches stars I would never...
Sever the treasure, or display my displeasure...
In weather when we are together...

And despite the fact that sometimes I'm stressed...
I'm blessed when I'm pressed to pass these hard tests...
And though I profess, and truly confess...
I'm less stressed when in recess...

I thank all my teachers for all that they teach...
Each one a bright star that is just beyond reach...
They never do preach, they correct my bad speech...
Each week they critique what I speak....

Seasons of anguish in rhythmic rotation...
Meticulously taking their time...
Summers of sadness...
Winters of madness...
Thoroughly mine...

Like the inner-workings of a complex clock...
Gears of misery, memory blocked...
Autumn emotions...
Springtime erosions...
Raindrops of pain refusing to stop....

Some girls can be seen...
And seem to be so serene...
Most girls can be mean...
But ghost girls are the Queens...

An adorable apparition constantly haunts me...
Escaped spirit prisons, she whispers she wants me...
And I want her too...
A hue of deep blue...
She glows with dark light that's so perfectly true...

Star-lit refraction severed tempered by weather...
Lets haunt these great walls and dark halls while together...
Seemingly leaving, I promise I'll never...
I love you my ghost girl, I love you forever....

At night when I shut out the light, I fear something is creeping...
Behind closed walls, and through dark halls, I hear dark spirits speaking...
And tears they fall, albeit small, I feel my spirit weakening...
And though I've wept, I have not slept, my fears keep me from sleeping....

This decision of mine, it is not of my choosing...
Nor do I need to explain with false words...
Cast me now into the refiners fire...
The suffering I've endured is absurd...

I will disavow all promises...
As I stand upon the edges of time...
Time that has lied...
Eyes that have cried...
Lies that divide...
My cries are denied...

Torch this wretched product of inhumanity...
Saturate my soul which doth' surely suffereth...
Reverse time, and destroy every last strand of my being...

It is only you Dearest Father...
That is capable of removing me from all of existence...

Do not send me to spirit-worlds...
Do not send me to space...
Remove every last molecule and fiber of my being...
Without leaving a trace...
I wait no longer for Your Eternal frozen flames....

Cornerless cubes descend perfect transitions...
Landing in perfect positions...
Geometrical-shapeshifter sick tragic visions...
In flawless conditions...

Rigid-bodied dynamics succeed...
Tipless triangles, lines in between...
Square circles...
Round rectangles...
Nothing is ever quite what it seems....

I love to see a child cry...
When it's tears of joy pouring from their eyes...
I love to see a child die...
When it's laughter that causes the dying inside...

I love to see a child in pain...
If it's just from the loss of their new toy plane...
I love the sound of a child's screams...
When they wake up realizing it was just bad dreams....

I will cradle you with my comforting arms...
Keeping you safe from the pains and the harms...
I will wash away all your pains of the day...
No matter what you may do or may say....