madtat29 Poetry (197)

Lightning striking
thunder roars
and oh the rain!
how it did pour
then afterwards the petrichor
the sweet scented smell of a summer storm...

©Antonio Acosta

Wide awake it's 3 AM
insomnia, can't sleep again
movies playing, theater of mind
times long past, another life
haunted by so many memories
inside recalling ancient history
what was said, what I did
people and pets since I was a kid
brief and long lived interactions
who, what, why, and how they happened
things that shaped me when I was young
every picture framed and hung
sights, sounds, scents, stored sacrosanct
black and white or colored paints
wide awake, the stories speaking
Keeping me from resting, sleeping...

©? Antonio Acosta

Why...?
Why am I going to go to a place everyday...?
Smiling and acting like I want to be there...?
Because that is what is expected of me?
A cog?, A wheel in the machine?
I'll make this b*tch spin.
For what...?
So I can help the rich get further ahead...?
Others who don't give a damn about me personally?
Wouldn't sit across the table from me and break bread?
Silver Spoon Mother f**kers who are already well off ?
Really...?
Tell me why should I sweat for you?
Why should I help you to my detriment?
How is it that I became your slave?
Tell me again why I need you.
A virus..., Plague..., Nasty sickness.
Sucking my f*cking life away.
Never again...Never...,
I will die first...

I think of you alot
Its odd
Wondering about you God
Where have you gone?
Humanity Lacks
Why did you go?
Bro...
Are you coming back?
This existence abysmal
Faith at a minimal
Basically Residual
My questions run consistently
Collectively continual
Do you care for us somewhere?
My paternal father wasn't there
An absence that is hard to bear
Life is hard
Your son was martyred
This makes belief just that much harder
Sacrifices demanded in blood
Cut a vein and let it flood
I'd understand you if I could
This place is hell...I'm trying to be good...

I search for happy
But find only sad
And wonder sometimes why I feel so bad
I try to get dry
But feel only rain
So I am soggy and salty all day
I try to be healthy
But I'm sickly with pain
It hurts me to be so physically drained
Looking for truth and find only lies
This leaves me cold and empty inside
Clarity eludes me and leads me to madness
These feelings I feel of hopeless sadness
There's a small light in the darkness that's here
But I am afraid to go near
A victim of fear...

Were no different...Me and You
I got this list of things to do
Accomplishments before I'm through
Most times I try to play it cool
Just don't cross the line I drew
I'm walking around with loose screws
And I just might go off...Kaboom!

Ladies gather round!,
What an offer I have for you!,
One fairly good dude,
Rarely abused and barely used,
Cleans up well
Just a little dirty,
Lookin like fifty,
but only past thirty,
Had a rough life but
there's some use left,
Not an exercise buff so
let me catch my breath,
A lot of loud music
left me slightly deaf,
And the sniffer don't work
so I've no sense of smell,
But like a old hound dog
loyal as hell,
A handy Jack of all trades
master of nil,
But whatever I do I do it very well
Cooks , cleans, even takes out garbage,
Who's in the market for a really good bargain?

Wing of bat, Eye of newt,
Those of skill know I speak truth,
Candles made of human fat,
Spirits will contact,contract,
Laws of magic, snap, react,
Languages spoken, old, dead,
Barely remembered, so rarely said,
Hearing the voices in my head,
Down the darkest paths I'm led,
Few will follow or dare to tread,
For fear is in the hearts of men...

We're all in Trouble,
All in Trouble,
When The Lord Returns We're All In Trouble,
We follow devils,
And worship Idols,
My library alone has 13 Bibles!,
13 Bibles...!,
13 Bibles...!,
My library at home holds 13 Bibles!,
Confusing virgins, {versions},
Men put their words in,
Ask Jesus Christ why's human life so worthless,
I search for purpose,
But follow devils,
That worship Idols,
My library at home holds 13 Bibles!,
It's scurry hurry,
This funny running,
And nobody can get enough of money,
It's disgusting,
How we follow devils,
And worship Idols,
My Library at home holds 13 Bibles!,
13 Bibles,
12 disciples,
What cursed Lord would fill his words with Riddles?,
The truth is simple,
We follow devils,
That worship Idols,
My library alone has 13 Bibles!,
From everything I read we're all in trouble,
Its easy to see,
We're all in trouble,
Yeah...,It's plain to me,
We're all in trouble,
Ye..., Apparently we're all in trouble,
Whatever you believe we're all in trouble,
Alien or not,
Maybe pagan ancient gods,
No matter what they want,
We're all in trouble...,
All in Trouble...,
If Anyone Returns...,
We're all in Trouble...,

"Baa...baa..."
Black Sheep,
No-one Hears you,
Ugly black wool,
No-one Shears you,
Lost in Darkness,
No-one Sees you,
Lonely Black Sheep,
No-one Needs you...

There was a period when I struggled with my grief,
A period of time when I couldn't find release,
A period when I denied it was over,
Then came a period when I couldn't find closure,
A period came when I didn't have a friend,
Then a dark period when I almost decided to end it,
A hanging period at the noose of a twisted rope,
A period when I finally found a way to cope,
After a period when I totally came unglued,
Before a period when I finally said "I'm through..."

In darkness it exists,
In shadows in the mist,
A twisted wicked fist,
Grips an ancient evil list,
It's the devils master plan,
Armageddon is at hand,
I see the end...,
I see a time aproaching rapidly,
When all things shall cease to be,
It's a plaugue of angry rage that parades this age,
Death and devastation hanging rank in the air,
This cresting wave is caveing,
Noone's aware,
Noone's prepared,
It's like noone cares,
I see a holocaust and I'm lost,
In the horrendously awful sight,
Amid atomic flashes of white hot light,
Mushroom clouds turn day to night,
The land in ashes,
Scorched dirt,
Sorrow fills an empty earth...,
This is the path of mans own choosing,
Waging a war everyones losing,
I see man will be mans own undoing,
Here we are at the end my friends,
Here we are at Armageddon...