stillframe Poetry (147)

i know im different then you but even i hurt too
ill take everything since i was five years old
everything iv written my poems and all
i tried to fit in where i don't belong
even though it makes me sad today
ill not right another poem ever again
even my songs will be trash all because
you hate everything i do all because
you say im different then you

my soul has sailed through rivers of lakes of oceans.
my heart has ridden the stars the moon the sun.
my lagoon of endless endeavors i ride on.
my grass is not always green but i love.
my dreams come to me when i run.
and i go into the stars the moon the sun.
i am only me and it is only only one in this endless sea.
through hills of mountains to valleys of peace.
my soul has sailed through the life as i ride on.

as i search for me through the fire of vacancy.
there's nothing left of me as you can see.
just a man a myth unspoken of through life and misery.
death some might say poison in the rain.
a gentle mind of heartbreak and pain.
a jester a knight but never a king.
im a wonderer searching for something.
to find self regret deep inside of me.
what is it im looking to find.
just a wonderer a lonely soul in misery.

im trapped in a stillframe.
not just a home but a name.
never moving just standing still.
there's no touch how can i even feel.
there's only darkness nothing is real.
just me alone just standing still.

today i find a new reason.
to change the world and all seasons.
to make a plan for us to see.
in my heart and in my memory is where you'll be.

a daughter a mother a child a woman.
a dreamer a lover a bright star a woman.
gentle smart able honest a woman.
a heartbeat a heartbreak a symphony a woman
a dancer a romancer a lovely woman.
a smile a frown a simple woman.
a beauty queen a young mans dream a woman.
the beauty in your eyes your a woman

when you go up to the sky remember play me a song.
so i can dance for the whole world to know.
and remember to watch me every now and then.
my dreams will be embracing your voice my friend.
play me a symphony for the whole world to see.
as we dance are final my love its almost time to leave.
play the piano in the sky for me just once my love.
one day even i will rise above.

i remember back then i felt so pure.
i was happy to watch those shows.
but now most mornings no tv for shore.
all i know is im always on the go.
when i was young everything was new.
i would always watch my saturday morning cartoons.
but now its movies wrestling and even the news.
i would great adventures in my mind.
as super man. scooby doo. are johnny valintine.
even the ghost busters. transformers. gi joe.
so many cartoons that made me wonder can i fly.
but now no more child thoughts just me all grown up.
wishing i could watch my saturday morning cartoons again.

life waters down the sour taste.
to feel the warm wind on my face.
im satisfied to know my place.
go slow my friends this is not a race.
so feel the warm wind and dawns grand embrace.
its a lemon summer so go out and live every day.

you could of been more into me.
i was into you like a sungaze in the night.
thrown in and out of extasy but we would never colide.
my face is now at my side and my sorrow is on overdrive.
the sadest days are the days im still alive.
if only you would love me as i love you.
but in the end. im the one singing the blues.

stop my pain please stop my heart.
i tried to live but my mind doesn't start.
to love you as i do makes me feel alone.
without you i have been sadness in stone.
why is indonesia so far from my world.
cant you see there's no else but only you girl.
im destined to love you i know i am.
but without you all ill ever be is sad.
to feel your heart beat just once in my life.
would be perfect like flying in the sky.
but without you im destined to feel alone.
to feel sadness made of stone.

the color has changed of the wind.
to push ourselves further to begin.
now all these roadblocks in our way.
as we gently fly far away.
to a world where dreams keep.
to a place of paradise in a gentle sleep.
as we fly as we know this is our dream.
this is some place for just you and me.