Very Beaten. If you can make me well enough to be proud of it would be great. If not pleased you are free to go. I need exercise for flexibility and to loose 60 pounds. Due to severe stress I developed a nervous disability. Nerv epills solve it, stopped the pain, electricity, gravity pulling me down and miseries with no words in the dictionary. However shrinks experimented with unneeded anti-psychotics which are dangerous. They caused extreme weight gain and diabetes. The diabetes was gone for 6 years, but came back just on my last exam. Pills for it may be in my mailbox now. I forced myself and lost 20 pounds in one month before, but now even withut taking the anti-psychotics (which did no more than the nerve pills) loosing weight is an uphill battle. There is a kind of vegetable soup with "negative" calories. That means it takes more calories of work for the body to digest than are in the soup. Sorry, tis part is hard. I have not had the cash to eat healthy for decades. So many times I have had extreme pain real or psychologically induced like 3 weeks of chest pain, not hte cancer but the after effects of treatment (cure), computer eye strain to the point of blinking to see thru the puss and 2 screaming ambulance rides. I am okay now. I do know that unattractive women desire men with "great abs" just as much as the beautiful girls and it is sad they do not get them. I think in Heaven it will be different. The higher shall be lower and the lower shall be higher. Think about it. Loneliness builds strength and character. However I have also learned the hard way that ugly women can be even uglier inside. I will just be reading you till trust or you are asked to leave. I will know the probably basic prsonality is good fast if it is good.
Attractive is okay but beautiful like this sometimes too (provided not stuck on yourself or conceited) Example
All sorts of technology jobs but the two most critical involve the President's ability to send the code for a nuclear strike on Communist Cuba & the flight control and landing gear systems of a fighter aircraft. I also design an ultralight aircraft.