sunday is one of the day of the week that i am looking forward to.since i went away from my homeland for work sunday have been a big day for me. its the day where i get to spend it with my friends here in cyprus, to some they see them as friends but for me for my two years and four months here away from my family, them is my family my friends, they're the kid of people that you will be thankful with meeting and bumping with. i feel so blessed having them through out my journey here.youre not only thankful cause you have a company to keep ot someoene to talk to but i am thankful cause i learn something worth it from these people as time goes by, they help me grow more as a person to become better everyday better from yesterday. theyre the kind of friends that worth keeping, they appreciate you for who you are through good and especially bad times. they doesnt stay cause they can benefit something from you, they stay cause they feel the same way with you. :)
its awful, sad, crazy, insane, depressing, mind boggling and a lot of tears... thats what i felt. everytime someone asks me how was it your first heartbreak(romantically)usually i think of all the negative effects on me i dont think about the silver linings i dont think about that person who once made me the happiest girl in the world. perhaps because i was so heartbroken to even think about all the happy moments or i am still on the stage of moving on, the stage where the scars and wounds still fresh. thats me two years ago, thats how i think of my first heartbreak, the denial and the acceptance stage was so hard you cant accept the fact that the person youre in love with is no longer there by your side, you keep on thinking that someday somehow he will run back to you, that he will realize thats its you and not the other person. then slowly day by day the realization will hit you, that you are better off without him in your life after all, before i would say to myself and think that he was the one who got away, i put all the blame on me why what we had didnt work out, as time pass by and my heart is clear with all the heartaches and the weight inside my heart is no longer there i felt like i did accomplish something for myself, yes i was bitter back then but now if someone mention his name i just cant help it but smile and i dont know why i feel happy i feel like ive been freed.
well i dont know exactly what to write down...perhaps about the things i like, like what do i do during my spare time or whats inside my mind or some random stuff about my surroundings that interest me, or my experience of the day that has something to do with personal growth. hmmm lets start of....
this past few days ive been thinking a lot about the people in my life to the exception of my Mom, ive been thinking since its gonna be 2014 in a few more days i think i should let go of those who had been not so humane to me this past few years, those kind of people who only stays with you coz they need something from you, those kind of people who says hi just for the sake of saying hi, it took years for me to realize that these kind of people in my life are such vibe killer. today i finished reading a book by paulo coehlo and it made me realize even more, after reading the book which my interpretation is about taking risk and never regret whatever decisions you make, be wise but follow your heart. their are people who deserves a spot in your life only few of them really deserves it and the rest they are just there to test your character when it comes to who you should trust and those who you shouldnt.
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