I do not want to seem like I am some desperate person in need of anything. So I put on my putter coverings of independence and self-worth. And although I believe in everything that I represent as a person, I seldomly allow myself to be human and to understand that I will have real human emotions from time to time. And I don't give myself enough credit for what I have accomplished at such a young age.
However, at this moment, my emotions are taking over my mouth and my hands and I feel like someone should hear what it is that's on my mind.
I was in a two year relationship. But back in September it ended. My ex could not deal with me leaving from Virginia to New York for college. I was blamed for unknown stress and lots of unforeseen pain. How I was directly connected you wonder?...because I moved away. That was my crime. Now I do not regret anything that has happened, but I have realized that I crave things that most people, Atleast college students, also dream to acquire. I want someone to soothe my mind and tame my inner beast of stress during my final exams. I want someone to come to my apartment to watch movies all night. I want someone to take me out for coffee in the mornings before my classes. I want someone to laugh at me becaus of all of the books I carry around and then help me study. If I am guilty of anything, it is that I personally don't like to be alone. I've got a big heart and an even bigger textbook. Who will carry it for me?
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