Ti na sou pw twra kai pws na sto eksigisoun,
pou xathike to fos kai esvise I psyxi sou…?
I saw her again the next Tuesday, at the party. I had been dreaming of her the previous days and it was so, so weird! I was worried about her and we stole a few minutes away at the party to talk to her about her life. A beacon of light, that little girl, she was! If you had never seen an angel on earth, all you had to do was spent a few minutes with Niki… just like you Anna; she filled with light everything that she came into contact with. She was telling me that everything is just fine in her life, trying to make the best out of every possible situation. We laughed a bit because I was telling her that I light up every time I see her because she looks just like you, as if you were twins of some sort! she would take her “supposedly annoyed” look with her eyes and say that she is very different from you on the inside… and I would laugh hard and long and tease her back that I don’t care if she is different inside because she still reminds me of you by the way she looks… I was telling her just how much you mean to me and how much I missed one of your hugs, couldn’t wait till you returned from London to see you again…
We left the party together Annulla, around 2:30 am and we talked in the parking, outside of our cars for a few more minutes: You know how I have always dreamed of you, visited you in my dreams whenever I needed to tell you something… Well, I had been having really bad dreams the past days, and it was weird because instead of you I was seeing Niki! So I was telling her to be careful with the car that night, because she had 1 hour of driving to get home and in them early hours this could be dangerous…
Why does god take the angels with him?
Is it such a bad thing to have a few down here among us…?
The phone rang the other day. I don’t get too many phone calls these days Annulla… and I am not complaining about it either, because, you know, it is something that I caused myself by withdrawing away from people… I prefer it like this… Especially after I managed to only keep close – in my heart – the people that I really care about by going away all that time ago.
The phone rang the other day. And I knew it couldn’t be for something good. I was at work and we had the TV on, they were saying something about the solar eclipse that had just taken place, showing it on the news… it was Marina calling. She was with me the other night, at that party that I also saw Niki and I introduced them – Marina was so surprised, she thought that Niki was you!
The phone rang the other day and it was Marina. She went off immediately: “Have you heard anything on the radio yet?” –“No, what are you talking about?” –“that girl you introduced to me the other night, Anna’s sister...” –“Yeah, what about her, what was she saying on the radio?” –“She is DEAD, DEAD…”
Silence Annulla… utter, complete, devastating silence ever since…
You left us and this world froze;
here briefly, but you touched our souls.
You had a glow of more than 10 angels shining;
The world is now one star less bright and staying here,
suddenly, seems much less aspiring.
I saw Niki two Fridays ago on the beach. It was a star filled night and there was music. There were drinks too – and a bar. It was one of those parties people throw at the beach and there must have been more than 1000 souls dancing there on the beach. I was leaning on the bar with my friends when she saw me from the other end of the beach and came running towards me, throwing her little arms around my neck and hanging there for a couple of minutes. I could see in her the love you always had for me and I know she could very well feel the entire bottomless well of love I carried with me for you... We talked all night – I hadn’t seen her since I had left Cyprus all that time ago. She was now the young 19 year old president of the Students at the new University. She asked for my help Annulla, my experience with these things, and I promised that I would do everything I could to help her before I left again…
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