dear one to describe the way that I feel inside is of great sadness, when describing that such feelings, to me, to feel this way is killing me inside, sorry for this outburst but one as to feel for the one he loves that is feeling that it had to be as natural as the need to breathe only to correspond equally to the love one dedicates to you , you feel it is not fair to the other through it on top when it is someone as you a perfect woman one that deserves everything, and not to have contempt to feel happy with the little that I feel am giving, you realize that this isn t the way it suppose to be and as to take an attitude despite it will hurt that person deeply, in a way this is a contradiction, since unconscious or conscience you do, so sorry am I, for having to put this words that may not make any sense....