Thank you Mr. Gill. I was in love and had ideas that I could handle it, or that it may get better. But what was changing was me, to a person I didn't recognize or like much at all. It was not a clean break, as I loved him so much. It took about a month and a half of conversing, meeting, emailing, and lots of tears until one day I told him, we could no longer have any contact so that we could both get on with our lives. I curled up into a ball for a couple of days and didn't socialize at all for several months.
True is a perfect example for this Thread. One can gleen so much about who he is, just from what and how he writes. He is one of the good souls. Come to think of it, True was one of the first people to engage me in convo the night I took a leap of faith in the forums, and made me first post. I had been observing the forums for a bit, but had to work up the courage to post.
My last serious relationship, we were moving towards living together. He was bi-polar. He took meds for other things (chronic migraines, depression), but not meds specific for bi-polar symptoms. The first few months of our relationship were wonderful. And then he started about a 2 week cycle of extreme highs and lows. When he was "up" it was so wonderful to be in love, and be loved, by him. When he was "down", it was a living Hell. He would go silent for days, not come out of his home, not shower, his physical appearance changed. I couldn't touch him, he recoiled. I found my personality starting to change...I was walking on eggshells about what to say and not to say, what might trigger a severe reaction, I was losing my humor, I cried when he was down and the bad in me was coming out. I had to leave him and begin the journey back to myself which took some time. I still struggling with self-confidence, and how men may or may not view/accept me, as a result of that relationship. I am a sensitive person, I internalize, I feel everything quite keenly. I left that relationship one and a half years ago and was in a short-term relationship last spring. The new man made me feel alive and beautiful again, but he was not ready for an exclusive relationship. So, here I am today.
Ah, you just slipped in, in the nick of time. Being the upstanding young lady that I am, I ONLY dream of kittens, bunnies and fluffy little clouds. Sleep well Movin'.
All the best to you Mnowsa. I hope you post pics of your wedding day to share with us. Congratulations and I wish you and your bride a long, happy and healthy life together.
Dear CS...we sure need some more emoticons. Ideas...a ninja, one with a fin, one with a clothespin, and a kilt, and I could go on and on. Thank ya kindly. Most humbly yours, Kaybee.
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That would be lovely, and I would be humbled and honored. 
Now...where to come up with the airfare. 
Here I am! Now where's that refreshing adult beverage Vin? 
RE: Mental Illness, did u experience it ??
Vielen Dank fuer Eure netten Woerter Inkognito.