boy/man lying in his bed just about to get up.he was thinking that maybe his jurney had gone as far as it could in the land of vertual friends he had descovered a few months previously.it made him a bit sad but like most things in his life ........ he finds it better to move on once something has run its course........the friends he had met he had become very fond of and he will miss but to stay and become stale & anoyong seems to be a mistake.and he knows where to find them at a later date...my I'm so graet atitude....will have undoubtedy got under a lot of peoples skins...............................
nope no apolages here
I am what I am he thought.....and I'm happy........when you have been to hell on earth sleeping out in the cold dark wet english nights with no-one and nothing,adicted to herion,crack,methadone,benzodiazapine,...and drinking yourself into ablivion every day just to fill a huge hole in your haert....for yrs&yrs ........with no family no friends no hope..........then somehow god or something very speical or maybe just yourself decides..NO....enough........and you turn it around and sort your life out..........it can seem to make you anoyingly happy and you have a mind set that......well its been worse..........and drives you to look after no1 and those you love.......maybe he thought that he seemed arogant and egotisticle but he also thought so what.........its my defence mecanizme and it works......because he let no living being tell him if he's rite or wrong he knows his own mind...........you have a lot of time to think when you have no responcibilitys and are probably close to death.........so when you get a second chance you don't seem to bother nor care what peoples opinions are so long as you know your doing rite and doing good in the real world........I've only ever talked about my drug addiction on here for a vent because I NEVER tell anyone new I meet in my life because it does close doors and it does make people treat you like a freak........if I'd have read all the posts by manc31 I'd have thought.........god he gose on&on&on.......but maybe he was trying to get some feedback and to settle his past onece&for all in his head.....and maybe he has ..............he only/I only ever told of the small part of who I am on this site but it was a part I needed to pay some attention to and to deal with..........and I have.........thankyou all and goodbye I wish ever single one of you the best and my good upmost respect goes to you all
hya twinklesive just woken up its 8am here. have you thought of going for a walk? works for me.I find it better to walk out it the middnight air for an hour then relax then to start a conversation coz that just stimulates your mind(JMO) mind you we wouldn't get to talk to you then.............ps does "tossing"have two meanings in amarica? ............hope you settle soon
don't know how many of you have read the lord of the rings ..........when gandalf the grey fought that big firey demen whatzit in the mines of mordor and endid up coming back as gandalf the white .................well I've come back as the reincarnation of manc31..........my pubes are a lil longer and my spelling a touch better ...........my pet hobbit minimoo is feading me potato & leak soup to get my grey matter workin(& coz that's all they eat in the back of beond ........my wand is a smidge more powerfull ........
don't know how many of you have read the lord of the rings ..........when gandalf the grey fought that big firey demen whatzit in the mines of mordor and endid up coming back as gandalf the white .................well I've come back as the reincarnation of manc31..........my pubes are a lil longer and my spelling a touch better ...........my pet hobbit minimoo is feading me potato & leak soup to get my grey matter workin(& coz that's all they eat in the back of beond ........my wand is a smidge more powerfull ........
once apon a time in england there was a ........
boy/man lying in his bed just about to get up.he was thinking that maybe his jurney had gone as far as it could in the land of vertual friends he had descovered a few months previously.it made him a bit sad but like most things in his life ........ he finds it better to move on once something has run its course........the friends he had met he had become very fond of and he will miss but to stay and become stale & anoyong seems to be a mistake.and he knows where to find them at a later date...my I'm so graet atitude....will have undoubtedy got under a lot of peoples skins...............................nope no apolages here
I am what I am he thought.....and I'm happy........when you have been to hell on earth sleeping out in the cold dark wet english nights with no-one and nothing,adicted to herion,crack,methadone,benzodiazapine,...and drinking yourself into ablivion every day just to fill a huge hole in your haert....for yrs&yrs ........with no family no friends no hope..........then somehow god or something very speical or maybe just yourself decides..NO....enough........and you turn it around and sort your life out..........it can seem to make you anoyingly happy and you have a mind set that......well its been worse..........and drives you to look after no1 and those you love.......maybe he thought that he seemed arogant and egotisticle but he also thought so what.........its my defence mecanizme and it works......because he let no living being tell him if he's rite or wrong he knows his own mind...........you have a lot of time to think when you have no responcibilitys and are probably close to death.........so when you get a second chance you don't seem to bother nor care what peoples opinions are so long as you know your doing rite and doing good in the real world........I've only ever talked about my drug addiction on here for a vent because I NEVER tell anyone new I meet in my life because it does close doors and it does make people treat you like a freak........if I'd have read all the posts by manc31 I'd have thought.........god he gose on&on&on.......but maybe he was trying to get some feedback and to settle his past onece&for all in his head.....and maybe he has ..............he only/I only ever told of the small part of who I am on this site but it was a part I needed to pay some attention to and to deal with..........and I have.........thankyou all and goodbye I wish ever single one of you the best and my good upmost respect goes to you all