I never care to ask opinions or blog about my life on here but I know people are very open & I like reading a lot of the blogs. Lately I've been thinking about erasing my dating profile's (I have more than 1) & I just believe that I was probably meant to be alone. Now, before you think I'm showing self pity, this is why I say that.
I am going to be 36 in a couple of weeks. I have yet to fall in love, never been married nor do I have any children. A couple of months ago I was laid off from my job (still searching for one), lost my apartment so now I'm staying with a friend of mine barely surviving on unemployment. With all that said I'm wondering to myself...what the hell do I really have to offer somebody? I get that I have 'love' to give but that doesn't pay the rent. I drive a car that's not my own (making payment's to my play mother that got if for me & it's always on the brink of dying); & so I'm thinking how unattractive this must be to someone that will finally get to know me.
I mean, unless I knew a guy was truly trying to get back on his feet, I wouldn't want to date someone like that either. I have a lot of good traits though. Loyalty, I love being the ever-loving cheerleader, respectable, can hold an intelligent conversation, blah, blah, blah.
Ok I think I'm done venting. I don't feel any better but at least I got it off my chest. Thanks guys!
At one time in my life I thought whoa single life is great. I'm now approaching 36 & yeah, I so don't feel that way. I always had this thing in my mind that if you admitted that you were lonely that you were a loser/desperate. Umm yeah that's what I thought until my behind entailed the throngs of feelings that go with loneliness.
I would be the last one in the world that thought I was a 'catch' but I do think I'm somewhat of a prize. Aside from never being married, having no children, not really wanting children, no crazy exes or any type of bagagge that I would be on the top of the leader list. Now if you share these things I'm not being judgemental I just know that at this age people have one or more of these traits. Plus, I have really pretty hair, personality, can finish a declarative sentence, can count to high numbers & have somewhat of a humorous side to me. Still no takers. :-/
I know there's way more to what I described above for a man to be captivated & there's more to me then I'm willing to share on this very public blog. I'm just venting & sad because these dating sites have been driving me crazy & I'm about to delete all of them & call it a day (I have more than one *sigh*)
Ahhh I think I need retail therapy...what do you think? lol I hope you're all finding some success on here. The only date that I've been able to find is playing that dang "Blockies" game on a Friday night.
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