my ex is married of 5 mths, he said he is going to get a divorce because he still loves me and the only reason he married was to fill a void....we had a 17 yr marriage and there was a 2 yr gap so 19 total..does he really love me?
This is going to sound crazy, but my ex is going to Las Vegas today to get married. We were married for 17 yrs and have been divorced for 2 yrs. We have kept in total contact, talking almost everyday. He met this gal 2 months ago. I really wish him all the love and happiness this world has to offer, but I'm feeling like I'm losing something for good. So kind of sad today
I know I don't have a right too, and I had plenty of opportunities to get him back, just feels like the end of a friendship.
I recently had communications with someone and everything had to be about them....makes you wonder if they even heard a word I said, well I don't think so, I hope not anyway and then still do something that knew I didn't like WOW! Any communication is done and over with for good...I'll be even more cautious who I correspond with now for sure...then now I feel better
3 1/2 years ago I had a divine healing, I know there are non-believers out there and skeptics that's why I won't allow comments, this is my story....
It all started with severe pain, I thought it was my back so went to doctor and he put me on muscle relaxers and pain pills, not once did he do x-rays or run any kind of test. Well, meanwhile my ex-husband developed a pain in his neck (no it wasn't me
) so he went to a neurologist and he had a disc in his neck that could be treated with muscle relaxers and heal overtime, but he insisted on surgery, the doctor agreed and this is where my story begins.
My husband had the surgery and I was with him in the hospital, at this point I could barely walk and couldn't write at all. I never said anything until the nurse asked me to fill out some insurance papers. I told her I couldn't because I couldn't write, she said I asked you to do that on purpose, she goes I was watching you walk last night and noticed you were barely moving. I told her yes I was having problems, she then immediately called the neurosurgeon to come in and check on me. He came in and ordered a Cat scan of my neck and back...2 hours later, he came back white faced and said I don't even know how your standing, much less walking...he said you should be paralyzed right now. I had 2 shattered disc blocking my spinal fluid totally!! So off to surgery I go, I had 2 titanium disc put in. Upon waking up from surgery I noticed immediately I could move my fingers!! A couple of hours later, they let me get to try and walk around, I could walk very good!!! The best feeling I had ever had! The doctor came in and was astonished that I was up and walking around, he thought there might had been some spinal damage, THANK GOD there wasn't!! He said I had I not got the surgery when I did, just stepping wrong could have caused me to be paralyzed permanently. So God used my husband to put me in the right hands at the right time or I would be paralyzed today.
I'm not writing this blog for sympathy, I writing it in remembrance of exactly one year ago today. I knew my Mom was sick but she wouldn't really say what was wrong, at the time she was 600 miles away visiting her brother. They had put her in the hospital the previous day, running test on her. Well about 9 am on this day a year ago I got a call from the nurse telling me I better get there ASAP, the nurse wouldn't elaborate and now I see why, she knew I had a long distance to drive, but she didn't have to say, I already knew. When I got there that is when I learned they had taken 2 pints of fluid from around her heart. My brother and sister was already there, I visited with Mom for seems like not very long, gave her hug and kiss told her I loved her, and then the doctor walks in and takes us to a room to give diagnosis...I have a brother in CA and we put him on the phone. Here's where my world turned upside down. He said they could keep draining the fluid, but she had bigger problems. She had a 7mm mass in her lung that was cancerous, and really at that point I lost it, I really don't remember what all he said, but he gave us the option to either keep the fluid drained but then the cancer was so spread he said she wouldn't live 2 months top. So really my siblings made the call to not drain fluid anymore....my world shattered...by the time we made it back to the room, my Mom was already incoherent, and she passed the next day. I look back and realize God protected my Mom from horrible pain from the lung cancer, I couldn't see it then but I see it now very clearly. My Dad had passed 10 months earlier from lung cancer, it has been a rocky road...
I LOVE YOU MOMMA
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