After tonight's few exchanged text with my ex, I realized that there are only two men that I have loved with all my heart in this vast universe. One was a long time ago and the other one was just recently.
So sad though, that these relationships had ended but I don't have any hold on to whatever there is to hold to. Decisions were made by both parties. My initial reaction: agony, rage, hatred but all these negative feelings subsided and the horizon of any possible feelings opened my heart and mind to view life with optimism and hope. That after a stormy night, a sunshine will brighten the tormented night and dry even the slightest dew left after the night.
The pain is replaced with joy... that I have overcome the break up and view life beautifully and positively ( thanks for friends who helped me). The rage is replaced with hope that no matter what happens in my life, I always have myself to lean on and that I need to be strong for my self's sake. Hatred subsided and now I have the ability to understand him despite the things he caused me and will be there for him for the rest of my life.... even though we have our own lives to deal with.
That is one promise I have first made and will die for it.
I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever.
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