Welp, here I go again.
I went through some kind of hellish things a few years back, and I coped by spewing all of my angst online. For some reason, journaling just to myself doesn’t do the trick - apparently I need a more public (if anonymous) confessional.
Anyway, I moved across the country away from the Terrible Things - to a beautiful place and a fresh start. I didn’t feel the need to write any more.
But then…there came some more Terrible Things. I dealt with them and squished those annoying feelings down, down, down. This is always my preferred strategy.
Unfortunately, squished feelings like to kind of ooze out sideways. Maybe you develop an autoimmune disorder. Maybe you get shingles. Maybe you can’t sleep without a pill.
So you see a therapist, who confirms that yucky feelings can’t stay squished forever, and we begin the process of un-squishing. Unpleasantness, that!
Therapist lady asks what I do to cope when Terrible Things happen. I’m at a loss, because when the Terrible Things come, I’m the one who has to fix it, to rescue my pups. No time for coping!
Then I remembered about pixel-venting. How it felt kind of good letting all that go, and allowing it to be read by folks who have no idea who I am.
There is no such thing as happily-ever-after. Sometimes you have to physically escape a bad situation, but the bad things don’t stop just because the geography changes, and those squished feelings…they definitely follow you.
So I’m gonna try online catharsis again. If anyone reads it, they may find it whiny and self-absorbed. They may find it horrifying. They may find it entertaining.
If it bores or annoys you, I apologize in advance and encourage the reader to scroll on by. Otherwise…enjoy!
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