I've recently been staying round a friends house and it got me thinking about things. About relationships, friends, goals in life, pretty much everything (you can tell i had alot of time on my hands and im a big thinker :P) Relationships are not the main priority in life, its the people you meet and keep with you throughout your life. So why am i putting so much pressure on myself to find someone? Im fortunate enough to have really close friends that have always been there for me. So was it just Intimate attention i was seeking? i dont know, but i do know that i appreciate people a whole lot more than i have done in the past.
Dont get me wrong, im still hoping for the girl of my dreams but i think i can safely say that now i can wait for her and (hopefully) make her feel like the only person in this world, and my own, that matters.
I think far too much for my own good :P
I know theres someone out there for all of us and i know i have to be patient when finding love, but its surprising how frusrating finding love can be. Not only that but sometimes someone finds you at the most inappropriate times in your life.
Im sure there is an easier way of doing all this, a way of showing people what you're truely like instead of them going on looks alone and use you for one thing. Wow i never though id say that :P Im also positive there is someone out there for me who knows the same feeling, infact im sure everyone does. I just find it so much more rewarding to get to know each other first and become friends. Then even if things dont go well you still have someone who undestands you and you know you arent alone.
There has to be someone out there so i'll just keep on looking. until then i'll just continue to be isolated from the wonderful feeling of love
Its been a long time but i have finally decided that i should start helping people again, even though i still remember the reason why i quit doing this in the first place. I used to help talk people through their problems and there was never a bad time of he day to help someone who felt like they had no way out. But I got too involved once and it ended up hurting me in the process. But maybe that wont happen this time, I'll do things differently. After all the world can be a cruel place to live in and no one wants to go it alone do they.
Lets just hope i dont screw up again...
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