something different
for the longest time I can remember, I was always the quiet one in school an out of it. loved to learn and meet new people, but for some odd reason everyone looked at me different, they avoided me and left me out of the loop. I though it was something I did, maybe something I said...but I came to realize that people just could'int accept me. weather it was for an image or just some popularity... I was always picked last and never appreciated, but being me, I would always try to help anyway!!! make people laugh, have a good time, be honest and cooky like I am lol, over they years I had to struggle more to fit it, Because I didint have parents....everybody hated on me and told me I would never amount to anything, lol but I would just keep going, turn the other cheek and know that I was better in many aspects. its a funny thing what,"rejection", will do to someone...me I just see it as a great chance to, know how to improve and find someone for me, yes we all have had heartaches and thing that didint work out, but its usually a lack of passion & desire, true emotions, real feelings, trust and, communication... think that most of us can say, we've had the 1 night stand lol!!! but really its not enough, you want more, you want and need that someone in your life, not just for your benifit but, for who they are as a person and how much greater your life would be with them...their qualities,traits,habbits, maybe looks, things they do,and the small things that mean so much, how they make you laugh, and how their heart speaks to yours...the list could go on and on, although sometimes you have to run before you can walk, same thing goes for finding that right one, you have to go through many people and situations,drama,heartache and life etc.,. to truly find that, sweet special well spoken amazingly unique person, but there is someone out there for everyone one, chances are you could have known them your whole life, and not even have known it, could be a friend or, even some guy/girl that runs by everyday...says hi or just smiles while they drive by...Never give up hope, Never be something your not and, always be honest and patient because, Good Things Come To Those Who Wait.
those who try and do their best will be rewarded with true happiness
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You are not alone in your feelings and not all of them are fact. When you know that you are a unique, valued, and beautiful individual you can go forward to conquer whatever obtacles life throws your way to build your dreams and reach out to love others in a very real way, perhaps in a way you seek but haven't received. We are all looking for unconditional love and acceptance.
You are only 19 so have a long ways to go! Try to see life as more of an adventure you can know, and pursue things that bring you happiness and joy. It's when you see what you can accomplish and how you can bring gifts to others that you begin to understand and have true self esteem.
No doubt, "You are only 19 so have a long ways to go!"