Trying to get back into the groove??

Not sure what to say so i will just let it fly... Here goes nuthin ;)

I am currently in a seperation mode to being divorced and i have childeren as well (all with the same women) So being that my time is tight between my responsabilities (i dont think i spelled that right, ahh well) between work and my kids i really dont have the time to waste to go out all the time to mingle like back in the day. But i obviously still love to be spontaneous and have a hella great time when i can and would like to do it around others instead of being that person that everyone stares at and wonders why they are by themselves. So i have recently joined this site and for all my experiences i`ve had in my life; getting on the internet to quote "meet people/singles" is something i`ve never done and it makes me feel awkward and somewhat needy?! Of which i`m not... at least from my perception. Even this blog has me second guessing what i should say- LOL. Anyhow, i have tried to send a couple of emails, shout outs and whatnot and have been sincere in my intentions which of course is on my profile. Now i realize that im either not gonna hear anything back, or if i do it will take some time (why does this feel like the infamous call that is either to soon or the game of waiting to not seem desperate)?? I guess im still stuck in the past somewhat and maybe there are new "rules of engagement" and im not talking about marriage!! Just the simple "hey, lets hang out & be freinds and whatever happens, happens..." Is that wrong? Does this send out the wrong message?? Plus i am a big guy and throughout my entire life people have either been intimidated by how i look and or how i carry myself. I cant help who i am and quite honestly i`ve always had the attitude that if thats the way you wanna be then your not worth my time and energy anyways, lifes too damn short to try and please everyone - right?? So there it is in a nutshell... what do ya think? Be nice now - LOL