I don't know how to feel. ( Archived) (14)

My son called me up tonight. I knew something was up by his voice. He hemhawed around about things for a little while, talking and telling me things and still not sounding quite right. And then....he told me. He said that he had signed back up for six more years!! I can't stand the idea that he is there for 6 more years. He said he wants to make a career out of it. Not a full time one, cause he has an awesome job and can't leave it. I have been a nervous wreck just waiting for him to get out. Would have been about a year for him to get out for good. He knows how I feel, and was a little unsettled about telling me. It is his decision and I know it. But,I wonder if he really knew how I worry day after day, and how it hurts me, if he would have done it. He's such a good young man, a new daddy and happily married. His life is going so well.
I hate it, but I am proud of him as well for his pride in serving his country. I just want to cry....I just want to cry.

i would too.... i am so sorry Kat.



i'll cry with you.... i hate to see the good ones get polluted by the horror there...sigh


i have to guess you raised a fine young man and that he will prevail and come home safe and with his self respect intact....

but the boys i see from the Netherlands , when they come home.... are certainly damaged emotionally and mentally if not physically....

i just feel like screaming when i hear these things!!!


i so wish we would find another way....it's my crazy idealism...

Kat, I will say a prayer for your emotions, and the well being of your family.

Hugs


Angel

Hi,
I just have to say WHAT A GREAT MAN IS YOUR SON!!
Be proud of him, we need that kind of guys in this strange world, passionate and working for peace and respect, military is a hard job, it needs to be persuaded of the peace's possibility!!
It is thanks to men as your son that thousands of women and children, men also, escape to the torture, to the death sometimes...It is thanks to people who feel funded of this mission that life takes its rights!
Don't cry, keep your head higher and smile, your son is an Angel!!!
Nath.

Thank you ladies. I do know that it was hard for him to tell me this decision. I was with him and my new grandson Sunday. We all went to dinner with his unit. I had noticed that he was a little off that day. Him and one of his best friends was being taken back by their commander kinda strangely. We continued throughout the day with him being eerily silent, but talking, if you know what I mean. Sorta like a child that has done something, but hasn't been caught yet. It took him 5 days to finally tell me.
When I woke up this morning it was the very first thing that was on my mind. And it usually is.
I know that I should be very proud of him, and I am. But with huge reservations. He tried telling me that I didn't have to worry about Irac, because they will be pulling out of there before two years is up. Arrrrrgggghhhh!!! Duh! Two years!?? Hello...He just went on and on telling me how Bush wouldn't be in office much longer and things would change. pffffffhhhhhht. That KOREA is the one, and that he thought that--that would work its'self out. And what if it doesn't? I am beside myself with fear, again.
I have a funny story to tell though; I had bought the baby (boy) a lot of clothes. And one of the items, (not even noticing that it had a teenie tee ninie bit a pink in it) they won't let him wear. We argued about it a minute, as I told him golleee Jay, it isn't going to kill him, it isn't going to make him gay". To which he replied " Mom, he isn't going to wear pink clothes and, I never said it would make him gay". I said " it isn't pink". And he said " I don't care, he isn't going to wear pink until he comes up to me and says,"dad, I'm gay",then I will go out and buy him all the damn pink he wants".
That is kinda funny, isn't it? Love you guys. Gotta go. Catch ya later.
Kat

You have raised the man you always wanted him to be. Be proud, and continue to pray, there is no greater safety blanket for a child as that of a mother's love. Continue to show him your support, for him, is very important to know that even though you don't understand, you'll accept it...

Your daughter in law and your new grandchild need you to be their anchor, now that daddy is away.

Stay strong, as only us mothers know how to be.

My prayers go to you and your brave son.

My prayers are with you and your son. I know that your proud of him, but I also know the worrying we do as a parent. That never goes away.

"Feelings" are not right or wrong, they just are.

From one that has a co dependent mother that wants to live his life, live your own life, allow him the right to live his..JMO

Excuse me?? I am sorry sir that you feel that I am wanting to live his life for him. That is just wrong. I have always let him make his decisions, since he was old enough to do so. I am not trying to interfere with HIS decision. I didn't haven't and will not. I am voiving my worry and my pain due to HIS decision. Not trying to take that from him and he would be so inclined to tell you so. I am a bit offended that you would say that to me. I nowhere in this thread said I tried to stop him or influence him. He is an adult, and a very good one. I am his mother that loves him dearly and wants no harm to come to him. I have no faith in this war, and hate that any mothers child is being injured over there and killed or mentally hurt in sinfully ignorant.
Kat