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zdeadmanwalkingbowling green, Kentucky USA235 Threads 3,011 Posts

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to my posse first let me say thnk you for believing in my words and yes some of the words you write does make me blush.it has been a true honor for allowing me into your lives,knowing you do not have too.but you have allow me to enter your lives yes even if it is just to make you smile and i am honor.but soon you will have your answers you have been asking,who i am? what am i seeking? what's up with all of these roses? but now i come here to write and as i am finding out it is reaching people,for those of who do not understand what i write it is simple it is not meant for you.only the ones that it is meant for will understand the meaning behind them.in this life for some it is easy to make fun of them and try to tear them down,to hurt their feelings and walk all over them,to kick them while they are down,to try and make small just you can try make yourself look bigger.but you know what it is not working cause that person while they are down they will get back up.some knows it is not worth it to answer you nor will they waste thier time by answering you.if you do not like what some is saying than it is simple don't read it.to you that says what i say does not make sense,maybe to you it does not make sense but the ones that understands it does make sense.in 1996 i was put in the hospital and for 3 days my body shut down,they stood by and waited to see if i would make it or not.when i was at a point where i knew where i was they took me into a room where my doctor,counselor,psychiatrist and preacher was sitting,with sadness in their voices they said they was sorry for none of the medicines nor treatments are working.my mind and body is slowing down and 1 day they will stop working and i will no longer be here.slowly i am losing my ability to communicate,which is happening now and everyday it is getting harded,i will lose my ability to function which is also happening now,they said they was sorry for there is nothing they can do.all they can do is to be there for me when i fall to pick me up and help me to go on.on the day i left the hospital the nurses was line up on each side of the ward and as i pass them 1 by 1 they reach out and hugged me,as i looked into their eyes i saw tears running down their faces and wonder why they was crying for me.what did i do to touch their life so it made them cry,with all i did was make them laugh and smile and yes even say dammit come here,what made them hold me in their arms at night as i cried on their shoulders.the next day when they open the door of the ward when they look out the door they knew why the man was still there and why he is fighting for before there eyes they seen 4 small children and a man with a baby in his arms.as they stood there looking at them and notice they all was smiling and they wonder how a family that have been through so much could be there smiling at them.i come here to write and make friends,to talk to people who need someone to listen to them,i come here to make someone smile when they need a smile,to say hey i am here if you need me,to say hey you are not alone someone understands what you are going through,here is my hand grab hold and i will lift you up when you are down,come here and let me wipe your tears away.but most of all to be a friend to someone,for sometimes all we need is a friend.someone who we know accept us as we are and for who we are.someone we know they will not put us down nor do or say anything to hurt us.that when we need someone to talk to they will be there for us.someone who like us will be there to share the good times and be there in the bad times,to when we are down they will be there to lift us up,as we will be there for them,yes when this life makes us cry they will be there to wipe the tears away,as we will do for them.