Hi! Thanks all. Yeah it feels a bit better now than before. I forgot my name by fatigue only by looking at a bike run on TV (and equally tripped and fell while looking at the skiing ). It is not a way to be, to be honest.
Jill, I realized my motivation when I heard some smart guy say "if you work on your job, you'll earn a living. If you work on yourself, you'll earn a fortune".
Develop desire for it, and a belief that you can do it, and you can do it. Doing nothing just leads to nowhere.
It is just this sort of thinking, really :) it has helped my career and personal life too.
RE: I WANT HAPPINESS !
Buddhism for the win ^^