Dad had his fist appointment with the cancer doctor and they gave him his first chemo. Tomorrow he will be getting a double dose due to the holidays and them being closed.
We were told 3 months last week but the cancer doctor told us today it more around 1 month. Without chemo that is.
Thank you Jim for your thoughts and words. But we are hoping that the chemo will give him a little while longer. I work in a hospital and did not want to do Hospice till he saw the cancer doctor.
Right now my/our main thing is to try and keep dad pain free. His liver is quite enlarged and hard as a rock! Hoping that the chemo will shrink it some so that eating is not as bad for him. My father drank some in his younger years. But can't say that I've ever seen him drink. It just has went from his lungs to his liver.
Cancer is such a hard thing to see someone you love go through. I have gotten many e mails from people that has seen their loved ones go through this. I thank you all for taking the time to write me and share you stories with me. It does mean a lot to me.
My oldest daughter just called me in tears. She is going to nursing school and working as a care taker of older patients now to make ends meet. She said mom I am so worried about papa, he said he would never leave us. I replied yes I know sweetie, we never want the ones we love to leave us. See my parents are looking for a miracle. And yes I've seen that happen. My son got sick once while we were visiting my parents. And we took him to the emergency room. They told me that they needed to transfer him to another hospital. Which we did. They did a work up on him and found him to be very anemic. But the doctor told me that it was much worse than that. They had discovered that he has a hole in his heart. And would need open heart surgery later to correct this. He was 2 years old at that time. We followed closely with a child cardiologist for 4 years. It was decided in the summer while he was 5 that they would need to correct this. It is called an atrial septal defect. They did many echo's of his heart and it was on tape. But when it came down to the last minute before his surgery they did another echo. And their was so sign of anything. The heart had been healed. Since this was a miracle (the doctors stated) they still wanted him to go to Chapel Hill NC to be observed and tested. They had no medical explanation for it other than a miracle. So back to dad...mom says that dad will be healed. And like I told my daughter a little while ago. Who am I to say it is not so since I've had this happen to my son, her brother. I can not take that faith away from my parents. I am hoping and wishing for the best but also preparing myself for the worst. Life it is a strange thing at times. And who am I to take anyone's miracle away. Dad I love you, Shirley
Thank you Calmheart for the compliment. But I think some would not agree with you. lol
Surgery was cancelled for today due to not being off his blood thinner for long enough. Matter of fact my mother is the one that told him to not take them. The doctor or hospital never mentioned it.
Means another week of waiting and worrying of me. But I guess one was of looking at it is that it was not to be done today.
So next Wednesday we will going back. I have that drive down pat down and know exactly where I am going.
A little update. Dad is scheduled to have the scope this Wednesday at 6:30. Thank you all for your kind words and prayers.
The doctor said it would take a couple of days after the scope to get the results. I am hoping for the best but preparing myself (if you can do such a thing) for the worst.
I am baking him cookies now to take to him tomorrow. Think a good cup of coffee and some sweets & quality time for tomorrow.
I now think of all the times I have listened to the same stories over and over. And think that one day I will wish I could hear them again. But for now I'm going to enjoy every minute I can with him.
Shirley49WV Blog Comments (13)
Without chemo that is.
RE: Looking for love
Hope you find the man that your looking for.