rest in peace, uncle Eddy..
so..in the silent room with a very bad internet line at home with a question whether this blog even can be posted....suddenly i got flashback of something that reminded me of my late unclehe died few months ago
he was the youngest brother of my mom
37 year old when he passed away
and it's all because of his sickness
when he was still alive, he said he just wanna enjoyed his life
he knew he got bad illness but he just ignore many advices and said he wanna enjoy his life
and so
that day happened
when my aunts called me and mom to go to their house
i just can't forget that day
the day when i saw my uncle so weak
sitting on his chair
he couldn't even move from his chair if my aunt didn't help
he breath so hard
i still remember his way of breathing
he called my mom
"Mbak...tolong aku, aku tidak bisa bernafas lagi"
it's Indonesian language, means he asked my mom's help as he couldn't breathe anymore
my mom who is a very strong woman after things had happened to our family for years and years, couldn't hide her weakness facing that condition
well...fortunately it could be overcome that time
but finally...weeks after he got back home from hospital, he passed away on the same chair when my aunts went to work.
nobody saw when he breath the last breath coz my aunt came home after hours and when she touched him and asked something to him, his body was just falling down from his chair and no sounds of breathing could be heard anymore
i imagine how sad he was
passing away with nobody accompanied beside
not even someone to whisper him a prayer or even to touch his hands
i didn't see his passing that day
but always and until now
i remember the day when i saw and heard him breath so hard, until now
his illness has made a very bad complication to all of his organs, his lungs, his heart..just all
when he was still alive, he was kind for us, a funny uncle, a trying to be funny uncle..not a perfect uncle but somehow we have lost him so bad
good bye uncle
rest in peace
you will be always in our heart
-from me, your niece
Comments (10)
and he will be a special spirit from Heaven too
:-)
guess, some chapters of our lives are never erased and such special ppl make our life worth living....
be strong !!
it is true
when i am alone i feel the lost even deeper
because
well u know
sometime we really feel the big lost after that person leave
we just know how precious something when its not around
right?
remember Each time you think of your uncle you will feel him in your heart...
Jayjay
everytime i remember him, i feel him just close to me