sometimes tired of having a fake strength
days after daysoften i face ups and downs
when im up its up of course
but when im down so many times, what i do is only to cover it with happiness
pretend that nothing happens
acts as a professional actress that everything is ok and no way to be sad, i am cheerful enough to be sad
but when i am inside the room that thing is out all is out
and when i come back outside the room its just to come back to another world which push me to be somebody else
"an always happy girl"
yes in front of my mom i must always look good
coz i dont want to break her heart if she knows i can be deeply sad
indeed i can
and its double hurt when u must cover it with happiness
im just tired of having this fake strength
somehow tired
i wish one day i can have the real strength which i know it will help me lots
i wish
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You did not let on as to what exactly is causing you so much pain.That's a start. is it work, school,male problems, financial. What is it? You sound like you really could do with a friend or someone to confide in.Cryingalso helps
I know I felt just as you did two months ago when my bf sent me packing.It was the lowest periodof my life, but I started to pray more and hange out with my friends and thats how I dealt with it. In life we all have to go thru challenging times and its that that really helps us to be stronger more resiliant individulas. So think of this as a phase and try to figure out what God is trying to teach you until you are able to rise above. You will get there one day.
Bless
yes i must get through this
must say i can
must
and forgive me as i can't be that open to expose what made me this down
but thank u
wish me luck
i really need this support for now
i am only an ordinary woman
that is also what they are over expecting about me
i am a human
same with all human in this world who can be down if the thing press u that bad
but ok i will be healed
i'm sure
you all make me sure of this
thank you
:-)
this one really cured me
watch out buttsss!!!
this old guy will kick u out of this world ahahaha