Honestly, I'll be like a child when I say this... I was given a teddy bear the day I was born, and I've had him by my side every day of my life. He still is in the corner of my bed, he goes on trips with me (though for the last eight yesrs or so he stays in the bag...), he's been everywhere with me, and he's a real comfort when I'm upset or sick. I don't know what I'd do if I lost him.
Thanks, Chance. It was actually a while ago, I was 17. He/she would have been two the 18th of this month (at least that was the due date). I've... Accepted... What's happened, and I know that he/she'll always be in my heart.
There were a lot of physical things that hurt, embarrassed, and pretty much made me go insane for those 26 months. Blaming me for the miscarriage, now.... How does a mother get over that one...
"The things in your past that hurt you so bad, I'm insane with anger and thoughts of revenge", and so since I can't hunt down the others that hurt you, I'll beat you senseless....
The stuff in quotes was what was said, the stuff outside was what wasn't said, and the actions of the breakup were mine. I left. Without any breakup line at all, lol.
Very true. I've told him that cost of living is about double here as it is there. I know he can't afford it, but he's trying to save money now for a plane ticket... Moving permanently has been pushed off for a while, at least. If he can't fly out here soon, he's got a flight and a luthier conference in Tacoma in June; he was planning on checking out the surrounding area (he wants to be somewhere outside the city.... With some acreage or whatnot) and also driving up to see me. So things are taking a more realistic turn with the lack of funds. Which, well, for me at least, is a bit dissapointing... I wanted to se him, lol, but, well, that's how life is. We'll just keep talking and taking things at a realistic level. Once again, thank you, everyone, for the continued support. I really appreciate all of your comments, opinions, and best wishes.
Thanks, everyone for the continued support, and the well wishes.... I'm (very slowly) getting better. Update again, since I posted last, he and I talked for a few hours, and he called, and pretty much freaked over the fact I was coughing and so sick and in pain (I have to admit, I probably do sound horrible!), so he's doing anything he can to scrape up the money to get out here this weekend. Crossing fingers, but I'm not getting my hopes up too much.
So.... He was going to get a free pass from his uncle, his uncle has no more... So he's trying to scrape up money he doesn't have, to come see me.... It looks like the flight is off.... For now... I was looking forward to seeing him, though... Oh well.
Have you been at CS? We are now talking about newbies.... I've been here since August 2005, but recently just got into the forums, and I still feel like a newbie... Lol. So how long have you been here?
I think I'd take a chance on someone without a pic if they had a full profile, and they talked a lot, seemed nice.... The only reason I say that is because about a year ago, I didn't have a digital camera, scanner, or any other means to get any pictures digital and online. Others may only have a computer, you know, and if they're very serious, there's places they can go to at least get you one picture, after a bit of time. Give people without a picture, but who really try otherwise, a chance.
Thanks, Sweetcheeks, for the positive reinforcement as well.... It's just as good to hear as the cautious warnings. Oh, and by the way, keeping y'all updated, I'm sick with bronchitis pretty badly (I'm asthmatic, so it's ten times worse than it would be for someone with healthy lungs), and he's worried enough for me it looks like he's flying out tonight and spending the weekend. So we get to meet (not under the best of circumstances, I asked him not to only 'cause I want to be fun, not on the couch, but.... He's worried, wants to see me, and I really want to meet him, too) and I'm pretty nervous. Anyway, I'm prepared for the new line of questioning and comments..... Let me know, of course.... :)
I was on here last summer... I met a guy just an hour from me... We had a few month relationship, and though we're not together anymore, we're still best friends! I was so nervous, but we had a wonderful time... So just to let you know, it does happen! Good luck and welcome!
You hurt me physically, mentally, emotionally, verbally.... You blamed me for losing our precious Erin, when we never even knew her. You told me I was the cause of your issues, I was selfish and insane, that no one else would want me. You begged me to stay, you loved me, even when you locked me out of the house in the snow to sleep on the front doorstep all night, or when you used me after you tied me up, or when you drove me to physically harm myself.... That night you cut yourself and then choked me almost to death and ripped my jaw out of place? The night I finally had the guts to leave you and call the police, to never come back? I wish upon you, my dear ex, that you will always remember that night, and know in the deepest parts of yourself that that is the moment you lost what could have been the greatest thing in your life. I hope and pray you look back on what you have done and hate yourself, cry yourself to sleep (like you did when you thought I didn't love you), wish I would come back to you. I regretfully say I'm not so insane as to ever consider talking to you again, let alone come back to you. Other people see me as beautiful, not fat and ugly and unwanted as you let me believe, so I would stay and be loved by someone, anyone. I am sttractive, I am powerful, I am successful. I have grown, I have lived, and I have become more than you would have ever seen from me when I was with you. I wish you the best of luck in rebuilding your life... Because of your actions, it will be a long, sad life without me. There is a man out there, somewhere, who deserves me and will treat me the way I'm worth being treated. Thanks for Erin and and the few happy times we had together. The rest you can keep for yourself. Yours never again..... Cirreh
My parents charge me rent, I'm recovering from a destructive relationship, and have been charged rent since I was 15.... Lol, if they're working and just don't plan to get a place, with nothing wrong, I'd say sure... I think it's pretty fair.
And, if youd like, he's relocating, Seattle's better than Minnesota on original music artists, and independent artists. He's got no kids, no police record and no warrants, his middle names are Joseph David, he graduated, went to college, and attained three degrees (vocal, classic guitar, and music arrangement) only after he tried his hand at semi pro motorcross racing, he has an older foster brother (he was adopted at 12, came to America from Ireland when he was young and his parents passed away after). He's got an ex, but she's not the one who was mistreated, he refuses to ever ask for my help (and I'll keep it that way, I don't have the money to support him, and he knows it), and he builds guitars, and can get any other job doing whatever he can to earn money if his shop doesn't take off (his words, not mine). Bored and alone? I do this because I have no time to go sit in a club or bar or wherever else because I work pretty hard, and long hours. Anyway, I am slowing it down, so I can learn of "the big, heavy stuff". Thanks, again!
Thanks... That's what I was thinking too... So what kind of argument do you use against a guy who's in love with you and determined to be with you, even if it disturbs/destroys his carreer?
I've been talking with this guy on and off for a while, and it's gotten serious the past week or so. Even though it's been a short time, we're both very attracted to each other and we're getting serious. The other day, he mentioned moving out to be with me. We haven't met yet. We both know that 1500 miles is a lot, and we've discussed visiting each other, but he's now got it in his mind to give up his shop (he builds custom guitars), take his music on the road, and try to start again here... I've tried to talk him out of it, that he shouldn't give up his carreer for me, but, like most men (no offense, guys), he's not really listening, and telling me he knows what he's doing, etc. How do I convince him to take his time? Or do I just let him do this? I'm not complaining, I'd love to have him here, from what I've learned of him online and on the phone, but... Moving is a big step, isn't it? What do you guys think?
I wish, I spent Thursday and Friday home from work sick, and I've got to go to work bright and early! But I slept most of the days I had off, and the weekend, too, so I guess I deserve to get back to work and getting up early!
I told him we'd all miss him and his posts.... I don't know if he found someone or if he was just uncomfortable here, or what.... He didn't tell me much this morning when we spoke in the IM. he was pretty cryptic about all of it, so.... I'll talk with him again probably tonight or tomorrow, let y'all know if he's planning on coming back.... 'Cause even if he has found someone, I'm going to miss him in the forums!!
I actually recoomend that book: He's Just Not That Into You. It was suggested to me as a cruel joke, but I did buy it and read it..... it really enlightened me, helped me a lot, and I look at dating differently... I'd check it out, it helps, seriously.
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RE: alright ladies it's your turn
I want my sweet knight, thanks! Tall, dark and handsome for me!