Just want to let you know on about my thoughts.. on privcy, and why some things should be kept private..
My ex is on this site, I dont care if she is or not.. but I do when I get dragged up on the forums like mud.. and people comment when they dont know the whole story.. I dont care anymore.. so heres my mud.
Before anybody make judgements.. just maybe I need to set some truths.. my work, the stress of the job, took a big toll on me mentally and felt trap.. I was bullied, personal belongings damaged, not able to sleep always feeling sick.. but I felt trap and nobody understood or believed what I was going through.. including the ex until it got worse when I lost control and I couldnt control my temper.. I was so afraid.. and I could see my temper coming from my dad when I was younger and i see it from my brother... coming out in me.. I hate it.. I hate myself.. I know I have a problem I've tried to control it.. but nothing work, I tried medication.. I hate myself.
I was so upset about hurting my ex, I had to leave her.. I couldnt take it anymore, I dont trust myself.. I dont trust myself with anyone or anybody in public.. I was so upset the thought of hurting my ex I tried several attempts to take my life, serveral attempts and electrocution, failed, cut myself serveral attempts fail, sat on a railway line fail no trains after 9pm (I didnt know)
Some things should be kept private, and out of public viewing if comments are going to made about other peoples ex's.. you dont know them. You dont know the whole story.. how can you be judge jury and excutionor without hearing all the facts..
Yes I slept with somebody after we broke up, it was intentional, it just happened, I was already low and she was there when I needed to talk to somebody and I was there to when she was in the same situation.. Im not going to get into the nitty gritty how it happened.. its private none of your business.. funny that.. now with how bad my temper is.. uncontrollable, I fear what im capable of.. its scares me.. and for a moment with this woman I felt abit normal again.. no agression but thanks to this forum after reading about all the mud on me.. I just have to say after loosing it today I lost it.. I cant control my temper, I cant control me.. what chances do I have with her or anybody else.. all I wanted to do was feel normal again..
Ive been accused of cheating on many occassions, and im sick of it.. no matter what I say she will never believe me..Ive had it.. what do i do ..I cant win.. I swore I would never cheat on anybody... well too late now.. I might aswell lie say I cheated because she wont believe me anyways... what the hell
Maybe when people comment about somebody story, they should wake up and realise your only getting half the story.. as i said something things shouldn't be brought up in a public forum and others who dont know me personally should mind there own business.
I will admit im not mentally stable atm, but comments that ive read about me and been aired in the public to see... I feel like the lowest scumm on the planet, users here dont know me.. I human, I make mistakes.. im not perfect..
I could respond to what she posted about me.. but you now what thats none of your business..and it would be petty.. and im not going to be that low.. alot of it has hurt me.. what she has posted.. like if it was all a lie on my part.. I cant take this anymore...
I really hope people think twice before making comments about people they dont know.. and the foolish approach and think they know stuff about people they never have met in rl.
This has put me over the edge the comments, I put my fist through the walls and doors, I hate myself.. it was short and sweet life.. thanks, ex, thanks connecting singles, thanks for members who posted and knew nothing about me..
Goodbye.. time to get some bourbon and suicide attempt # gotta be a first for this forum huh?
Hi my name is Matt
Thought I'd come in and say hi..Just want to let you know on about my thoughts.. on privcy, and why some things should be kept private..
My ex is on this site, I dont care if she is or not.. but I do when I get dragged up on the forums like mud.. and people comment when they dont know the whole story.. I dont care anymore.. so heres my mud.
Before anybody make judgements.. just maybe I need to set some truths.. my work, the stress of the job, took a big toll on me mentally and felt trap.. I was bullied, personal belongings damaged, not able to sleep always feeling sick.. but I felt trap and nobody understood or believed what I was going through.. including the ex until it got worse when I lost control and I couldnt control my temper.. I was so afraid.. and I could see my temper coming from my dad when I was younger and i see it from my brother... coming out in me.. I hate it.. I hate myself.. I know I have a problem I've tried to control it.. but nothing work, I tried medication.. I hate myself.
I was so upset about hurting my ex, I had to leave her.. I couldnt take it anymore, I dont trust myself.. I dont trust myself with anyone or anybody in public.. I was so upset the thought of hurting my ex I tried several attempts to take my life, serveral attempts and electrocution, failed, cut myself serveral attempts fail, sat on a railway line fail no trains after 9pm (I didnt know)
Some things should be kept private, and out of public viewing if comments are going to made about other peoples ex's.. you dont know them. You dont know the whole story.. how can you be judge jury and excutionor without hearing all the facts..
Yes I slept with somebody after we broke up, it was intentional, it just happened, I was already low and she was there when I needed to talk to somebody and I was there to when she was in the same situation.. Im not going to get into the nitty gritty how it happened.. its private none of your business.. funny that.. now with how bad my temper is.. uncontrollable, I fear what im capable of.. its scares me.. and for a moment with this woman I felt abit normal again.. no agression but thanks to this forum after reading about all the mud on me.. I just have to say after loosing it today I lost it.. I cant control my temper, I cant control me.. what chances do I have with her or anybody else.. all I wanted to do was feel normal again..
Ive been accused of cheating on many occassions, and im sick of it.. no matter what I say she will never believe me..Ive had it.. what do i do ..I cant win.. I swore I would never cheat on anybody... well too late now.. I might aswell lie say I cheated because she wont believe me anyways... what the hell
Maybe when people comment about somebody story, they should wake up and realise your only getting half the story.. as i said something things shouldn't be brought up in a public forum and others who dont know me personally should mind there own business.
I will admit im not mentally stable atm, but comments that ive read about me and been aired in the public to see... I feel like the lowest scumm on the planet, users here dont know me.. I human, I make mistakes.. im not perfect..
I could respond to what she posted about me.. but you now what thats none of your business..and it would be petty.. and im not going to be that low.. alot of it has hurt me.. what she has posted.. like if it was all a lie on my part.. I cant take this anymore...
I really hope people think twice before making comments about people they dont know.. and the foolish approach and think they know stuff about people they never have met in rl.
This has put me over the edge the comments, I put my fist through the walls and doors, I hate myself.. it was short and sweet life.. thanks, ex, thanks connecting singles, thanks for members who posted and knew nothing about me..
Goodbye.. time to get some bourbon and suicide attempt # gotta be a first for this forum huh?