Hi my name is Matt (18)

Thought I'd come in and say hi..

Just want to let you know on about my thoughts.. on privcy, and why some things should be kept private..

My ex is on this site, I dont care if she is or not.. but I do when I get dragged up on the forums like mud.. and people comment when they dont know the whole story.. I dont care anymore.. so heres my mud.

Before anybody make judgements.. just maybe I need to set some truths.. my work, the stress of the job, took a big toll on me mentally and felt trap.. I was bullied, personal belongings damaged, not able to sleep always feeling sick.. but I felt trap and nobody understood or believed what I was going through.. including the ex until it got worse when I lost control and I couldnt control my temper.. I was so afraid.. and I could see my temper coming from my dad when I was younger and i see it from my brother... coming out in me.. I hate it.. I hate myself.. I know I have a problem I've tried to control it.. but nothing work, I tried medication.. I hate myself.

I was so upset about hurting my ex, I had to leave her.. I couldnt take it anymore, I dont trust myself.. I dont trust myself with anyone or anybody in public.. I was so upset the thought of hurting my ex I tried several attempts to take my life, serveral attempts and electrocution, failed, cut myself serveral attempts fail, sat on a railway line fail no trains after 9pm (I didnt know)

Some things should be kept private, and out of public viewing if comments are going to made about other peoples ex's.. you dont know them. You dont know the whole story.. how can you be judge jury and excutionor without hearing all the facts..

Yes I slept with somebody after we broke up, it was intentional, it just happened, I was already low and she was there when I needed to talk to somebody and I was there to when she was in the same situation.. Im not going to get into the nitty gritty how it happened.. its private none of your business.. funny that.. now with how bad my temper is.. uncontrollable, I fear what im capable of.. its scares me.. and for a moment with this woman I felt abit normal again.. no agression but thanks to this forum after reading about all the mud on me.. I just have to say after loosing it today I lost it.. I cant control my temper, I cant control me.. what chances do I have with her or anybody else.. all I wanted to do was feel normal again..

Ive been accused of cheating on many occassions, and im sick of it.. no matter what I say she will never believe me..Ive had it.. what do i do ..I cant win.. I swore I would never cheat on anybody... well too late now.. I might aswell lie say I cheated because she wont believe me anyways... what the hell

Maybe when people comment about somebody story, they should wake up and realise your only getting half the story.. as i said something things shouldn't be brought up in a public forum and others who dont know me personally should mind there own business.

I will admit im not mentally stable atm, but comments that ive read about me and been aired in the public to see... I feel like the lowest scumm on the planet, users here dont know me.. I human, I make mistakes.. im not perfect..

I could respond to what she posted about me.. but you now what thats none of your business..and it would be petty.. and im not going to be that low.. alot of it has hurt me.. what she has posted.. like if it was all a lie on my part.. I cant take this anymore...

I really hope people think twice before making comments about people they dont know.. and the foolish approach and think they know stuff about people they never have met in rl.

This has put me over the edge the comments, I put my fist through the walls and doors, I hate myself.. it was short and sweet life.. thanks, ex, thanks connecting singles, thanks for members who posted and knew nothing about me..

Goodbye.. time to get some bourbon and suicide attempt # gotta be a first for this forum huh?

Gidday Matt.


You are 100% correct. I suppose we can make judgements or have opinions because we do only have the one side. The side we put across may not necessarily be putting a person down, but rather it's something that some of us have personally been through or experienced, so we feel we know a situation.

So when it comes across as attacking someone's X or uncle etc. It's not attacking its expressing and venting.

I do believe there are two sides to every story and it takes two to make and two to break a relationship.

I don't believe personal Dramas should be vented in the forums though, but can fully understand you taking a stand and defending yourself if you felt the need.



As far as getting a Bourbon and attempting suicide again. May I suggest instead of that, you pick up the phone and call Lifeline for some help.

Good luck.

Oh dear This really upsets me that all this hurt is going on for you. I suppose there would not be one member on any of the forums that have not been down that black hole of hell in one way or another.
We do know where you are please understand that.Who are we to judge you anyway.Your ex must be feeling really bad and had nowhere else to turn and that is why it came out,She like you would not be in a good place now either .

Please believe me it does get better and it looks like fate maybe is steering to another love.Don't give up please.... just remember we know where you are at.Come on here sometimes and have a chat we are weird mob but fun sometimes and our hearts are in the right place.

Hi Matt

There has been good advise given from the ladies already whom have posted.

Don't let one bad relationship stop you from carrying on and picking yourself up and getting on with all the good things that are there on offer in life.

Think about the people who do care and love you.

You can and will get through this and in time you could meet someone and love and be happy again.

We are all single here and many here too have had highs and lows but there a whole new life out there to find and enjoy.

So please read all our comments and advise and think positive, you can do this.

Hey Matt not sure who's slinging the mud around but let me tell you life has its ups and downs, its highs and lows.There are times where you and i and everyone else feels like there is no end or point to what we are doing. But life is a journey, a gift and sometimes a burden.
But at the same time you only get one shot. Cherish what you have and the many opportunities that have come and will come. Any momentary bump in the journey is just that, a blimp in the larger picture.
Think of the ones who care, think of the ones who will care, think of the ones who have cared.
There are other alternatives that one can seek out, talk to someone, reach out dude its sure as hell beats waiting for the 9 o'clock train.
Remember, you are not alone and i can tell/promise you that much..

Hi Matt,

One thing I have noticed,whilst reading through these Forums,
is that despite nobody really knowing each other,there is a lot
of caring happening here.
Whethor it be directed towards you or anyone else in the same
position,the people here REALLY CARE.

Someone suggested you phone Lifeline,well that's a great idea,
the people who take the calls have been trained to be professional and caring, Although I believe you have to truly be a caring person to work there in the first place.

They do a really wonderful job,and of course it is all anonymous.
I don't know if I am allowed to give this phn nmbr out on this Forum,but if it helps you it is worth it.

Lifeline is 131114.
I believe you really have to WANT to change yourself and your
circumstances,and I'm not going to 'beat around the bush about it', it will be hard work.
No one's going to do the work for you,you have to do it yourself.
So Matt, why don't you just pick up the phone and have a talk to someone who can steer you in the right direction?

Good Luck for the future.

Good on ya Matt you’re angry at the world you created for yourself. Its easy to fix that, go and get help and listen to the advice. Not only our body that needs maintenance like exercise but sometimes so dose our mind.

By the way welcome!