The treasure that i seeked for many years was right beside me yet i coudnt see it

This video Treasure is the story of my life, i was just 17 when it happened. i was sharing an apartment with a girl that i took as my best friend, she was great to me, i felt i could tell her everything , the reason why she accepted to share the flat with me on the first place was because she liked me ,but it looks like i was blind to see it, i was killing myself looking for the girl of my dreams which let me to the hands of a "Gold digger" who only wanted to get free entrance at clubs , restaurants, and reductions at shopping strips because of my name and connections. things could be more clearer when i had an accident and i was about to die , and while unconscious, my best friend "the girl secretly in love with me" did the impossible to get the doctors to carry operation on my wounds considering i had no parents around , so in one word "she saved my life" . the twist is that the doctors thought she was my girl friend so when i regained consciousness they told me i m alive thanks to my girlfriend , but i directly thought my "gold digger" girlfriend did that for me, so automatically i felt more in love with my supposed savior , " my best-friend " also let me believe that because she was scared she will loose our friendship if she contradicts what my current girl confirmed. I was always "regretfully hard with "my best-friend" when i had some little stress i will always take it on her not knowing she was in love with me. she felt she couldn't cope with it any more and finally left the apartment while i was absent and i looked for her every where and i couldn't find her. i later discovered proof that "my best friend was the one who saved me and my sister told me she confided to her that she was in love with me. truly i tell you that i had more than love for that girl "i respected her deeply" and because of that i couldn't see, or imagine that she could be in love with someone like me. every day since that incidence i ask myself if i will be able to find love again? since then i have been very famous yes but i have never given my heart, i became a love hunter "breaking hearts randomly and making victims of love". i deeply wish to experience love at least once in my life, i think it is time to write a new chapter in my life with someone who will accept my past and look up to the future. i acknowledge the bad i did before and i give myself no excuse, but all what i need is to be judge not by what i have, or what i did, but what i am ready to offer now.
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Chrislan Treasure