Yes, indeed, Friday is here!
To be honest I have mixed feelings about it.
Positive:
- I will be out of office for two days.
- Will give me time to clean and shop
- Going to meet some people so enhance my social life
- There is nothing important that can be arranged on the weekend
Negative:
- I will be out of office for two days.
- I need to clean and go shopping
- What if nobody wants to meet with me?!
- Some things HAVE to be arranged and that is a delay of two more days until they will be arranged.
Now, how did I become such a mixture of feelings? I tell you it is very easy.....Just be yourself.
We are often suppressing things that we feel or want to share. The good thing about blogging is that I can write here whatever I want without being faced with the consequences of what I thought or wrote. Or can I?!
This here is after all a virtual world. In the real world, from some reason, we all wear masks. We are afraid to say what we think, we feel that we need to change ourselves in order to fit, we are often dependent on other people's opinions or the fear of "oh, what would they say?!".
I mean if everybody will be honest, but with the intention of co-existing rather than pushing their egos above everything else then this would've been such a wonderful world.
Amen!
I wonder what is it that makes a blog a good blog. What makes people to read it and comment on it more?
The really deep meaningful message or some "pop" message which is designed to get some attention?
I always wanted to take a creative writing course. I did in a way - I write really convincing legal notices
but that is a result of several years of experience, persuading people, negotiating etc.
But, seriously, after writing my first blog on here, I decided that I might as well continue doing this on a regular basis. Of course time is tight, by writing makes me feel good. Even if it is about nothing in particular.
The keyboard of the laptop is like a piano, and I am playing a new melody. The melody of what is on my mind.
Today is Thursday. Tomorrow is Friday. And then there is the weekend. I think I could use it too rest. But until then a lot of work has to be done.
Is anybody aware how much bureaucracy immigration involves?! I mean the Dutch people do not believe that I was born :) And that is after 8 years of life in the European Union.
So I had to hire a legal service company to do arrange my birth certificate with an apostille and translation to dutch. You see, I was born in a country that does not exist anymore....Born in the USSR. So next week I will have to travel to Den Hague (another city) to visit the Russian embassy and give them permission to do it. Well at least I get half a day of work and get to see another city in Holland (if I don't spend the whole morning queuing like in good old soviet times).
Well, it could have been much worse....It always could be much worse....Remember that, my friends!
Otherwise, life is quite good!
Lets stand united and face the challenges of tomorrow!
Well, I don't know why is it actually that I have decided to write this blog, but here I am, in a small studio in Amstelveen (a suburb of Amsterdam), Netherlands, sitting in front of my company laptop which was granted to me for "working purposes" only. I am sitting and writing it.
Not so long ago (approximately 3 months ago) my life took a new direction. I was living in Budapest, Hungary (the 5th country in which I have lived, married for more than 4 years, living with my wife and daughter, and suddenly things started to happen. My wife has told me that she is not happy with our relationship, that she was already thinking about it for a year or so, but now she finally decided to go and start a relationship with some one else.
This came as a shock to me then, but now sitting here far away from where everything took place, I can understand that this was the way things meant to happen. Back then, I just had a major nervous breakdown. Well, you know, girls and boys, I am not as tough as I look, eh!?
So what happened next? I moved out to live by my own. Something I haven't done for many years. Actually, I have never lived alone before. Scary, eh? And I was really really scared. Suddenly all the stability I had was removed/pulled away from under my feet.
And, then, I have received a job offer from Amsterdam. Well, you see, my wife was never willing to move to another country, but all the great job opportunities in my field happened to be abroad. Suddenly, I could say "yes" and not fell guilty about it. And I realized, that was something I dreamed of in the last couple of years. And here I am.
Well, it is not easy....Suddenly, I am here in a new strange country, not speaking the language, not knowing anybody.
Also I miss my daughter a lot. Luckily there is Skype and I can actually talk to her and we can see each other online everyday.
I already booked tickets back to Budapest to visit her in 3 weeks.
I do feel a bit lonely here, and therefore, I spend more and more time in the office. I love my job. And also there are colleagues, most of them are very nice. So in the last 3 weeks, my life during the week was quite monotonous: wake up, shower, get dressed, catch the tram or the metro to work, arrive in the office, eat breakfast, work, cook lunch (yes, I have a kitchen in the office and besides it is much cheaper then to always eat out or buy ready food), eat, work, catch the tram or the metro home, eat supper, and then sit here in front of the PC.
On the weekends (well so far there was only 3 of them) I was exploring Amsterdam and Amstelveen and one weekend I went to Belgium to visit one of my best friends.
Now, what is the point of me writing all this here? No idea, but I already did, and to be honest, I feel good about it :)
Tomorrow is another day. Lets see what does it bring.
By the way, as I have mentioned, I do feel quite lonely, so if there are any ladies out there who are willing to chat online or local ladies who would like to chat and then eventually date - I am free :)
So that is it for today. May the force be with you!
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