New beginning

Well, I don't know why is it actually that I have decided to write this blog, but here I am, in a small studio in Amstelveen (a suburb of Amsterdam), Netherlands, sitting in front of my company laptop which was granted to me for "working purposes" only. I am sitting and writing it.

Not so long ago (approximately 3 months ago) my life took a new direction. I was living in Budapest, Hungary (the 5th country in which I have lived, married for more than 4 years, living with my wife and daughter, and suddenly things started to happen. My wife has told me that she is not happy with our relationship, that she was already thinking about it for a year or so, but now she finally decided to go and start a relationship with some one else.

This came as a shock to me then, but now sitting here far away from where everything took place, I can understand that this was the way things meant to happen. Back then, I just had a major nervous breakdown. Well, you know, girls and boys, I am not as tough as I look, eh!?

So what happened next? I moved out to live by my own. Something I haven't done for many years. Actually, I have never lived alone before. Scary, eh? And I was really really scared. Suddenly all the stability I had was removed/pulled away from under my feet.

And, then, I have received a job offer from Amsterdam. Well, you see, my wife was never willing to move to another country, but all the great job opportunities in my field happened to be abroad. Suddenly, I could say "yes" and not fell guilty about it. And I realized, that was something I dreamed of in the last couple of years. And here I am.

Well, it is not easy....Suddenly, I am here in a new strange country, not speaking the language, not knowing anybody.
Also I miss my daughter a lot. Luckily there is Skype and I can actually talk to her and we can see each other online everyday.
I already booked tickets back to Budapest to visit her in 3 weeks.

I do feel a bit lonely here, and therefore, I spend more and more time in the office. I love my job. And also there are colleagues, most of them are very nice. So in the last 3 weeks, my life during the week was quite monotonous: wake up, shower, get dressed, catch the tram or the metro to work, arrive in the office, eat breakfast, work, cook lunch (yes, I have a kitchen in the office and besides it is much cheaper then to always eat out or buy ready food), eat, work, catch the tram or the metro home, eat supper, and then sit here in front of the PC.
On the weekends (well so far there was only 3 of them) I was exploring Amsterdam and Amstelveen and one weekend I went to Belgium to visit one of my best friends.

Now, what is the point of me writing all this here? No idea, but I already did, and to be honest, I feel good about it :)

Tomorrow is another day. Lets see what does it bring.

By the way, as I have mentioned, I do feel quite lonely, so if there are any ladies out there who are willing to chat online or local ladies who would like to chat and then eventually date - I am free :)

So that is it for today. May the force be with you!