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Where them girls at?!

Girls/Ladies,

You know before I was married I was quite good in communicating with you. You found me even before I started looking for you.
Now that I am divorced, you don't find me and I can't find you.

And I really really need you.......

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25 Reasons Why Beer Is Better Than Women

******This blog contains stuff that some viewers may find disturbing"**********

Beer stains wash out

You don't have to wine and dine beer

Your beer will always wait patiently for you in the car while you play basketball

When your beer goes flat, you toss it out

Hangovers go away

A beer label comes off without a fight

Beer is never late

Beer doesn't get jealous when you grab another beer

When you go to a bar, you know you can always pick up a beer

Beer never gets a headache

After you've had a beer, the bottle is still worth 5 cents

A beer won't get upset if you come home and have another beer

If you pour a beer right, you'll always get good head

A beer always goes down easy

You can have more than one beer a night and not feel guilty

You can share a beer with your friends

You always know you're the first one to pop a beer

Beer is always wet

Beer doesn't demand equality

You can have a beer in public

A beer doesn't care when you come

A frigid beer is a good beer

You don't have to wash a beer before it tastes good

If you change beers you don't have to pay alimony

********All suspects are innocent until proven guilty (in a court of law)*********

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The punchline of today

It is really difficult to write a blog today. Too much alcohol, and not enough sleep.

There is one thing that bothers me....Why am I afraid?!
I don't know if any of you has experienced the same thing, but something is wrong and inconsistent with my self confidence or self esteem or whatever you want to call it.

I am actually a very social guy, but I'm really afraid that nobody will want to talk to me or spend time with me.
I am not Brad Pitt, but I am attractive, and still I have sub-zero confidence with girls.
I am !#@$ing intelligent, and yet I am afraid that people will think that I am not smart enough.

One can think, is it because recently my wife left me for another guy?! But,no, that was 3 months ago, I moved on, I am feeling better now.

I think it is something else. Before I met her, I was able to socialize, to look good, to convince people, to feel that I am a wanted part of any society in which I would like to engage.

There should be no reason why I can't do it again. Find my "old" self - the old "self" that I liked and so did everybody else.

Slowly this is coming back....I can feel it like an energy streaming through my weens, but yet something is holding me back.
I am not worthy, i am nobody etc...

BULLSHIT!!!!!!!

3 weeks in Amsterdam on my own, and I already have a social life. People actually want to spend time with me, I am invited to parties and lunches.

NO FEAR!!!!!!!!

But why is it that I end up bringing myself down? What is it inside me that disturbs me to live my life as I want it? Why am I preventing my own progress, stopping my own healing process?

And once again, why am I here on CS, sharing my thoughts with anybody who wants to read it?

Simple. I believe that there is nothing wrong with what I feel and think. I am not afraid of people reading this and thinking that guy is nuts...And once again, after I write what I think down, I feel cleansed, I feel good with myself.

And isn't it what life is actually about, feeling good with yourself?
If you don't feel good, how can you make other people feel good.
If you don't love yourself, how can you expect other people to love you.

I am still at a certain distance from my target, but I am slowly reaching it. I am developing. I am growing. I am evolving.

One day I will be where I want to be. If I only knew where.....

But life is a great teacher, it will guide you wherever you need to get to.

One day, I will be there.
No more fear! No more bullshit!

I am not afraid - and you shouldn't be as well.

But it is really not easy.

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Summer time!

It is pissing rain and 13-14 degrees Celsius.....What did Dutch people do to piss off God that much that his is constantly pissing on them?!

But all of this is not important....The summer is inside!
Although to be honest, it is quite difficult maintain if you are wet and cold.

How is your summer going?

Ladies and gentlemen, lets get the party started!

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Amsterdam

If you'd asked me 3-4 months ago, whether I would ever live in Holland or in Amsterdam, I would've said:"Are you kidding me?!".
But now that I live here already for over 2 months - it is really not too bad.

And I am not saying that just because cannabis is legalized here

Amsterdam is full of foreigners so I don't feel like a foreigner myself. Everybody speak English on a conversational level.The Dutch language is quite special but if you speak English and German then it is more or less legible.
All this canals, bikes, old houses, there is something very special in it. The atmosphere is unique (and I don't mean just in the Red Light District

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Dutch people really know how amuse themselves as well. They have invented some really cool games that once can play everyday while waiting for the bus, tram, metro or train.

Here is an example (I play it everyday on the way to work and on the way back):
Form a compact mass with the others who are waiting, and do so as soon as the vehicle appears in the distance. When it arrives block the doors so the exiting passengers can't leave. Above all, don't move out of the way when the doors open and people attempt to get out, as this might speed the things up. After all, you wouldn't want anyone to get ahead of you in the mob.
If, however, you are a passenger waiting to exit, then you have the right to curse the stupid idiots blocking your way.

In rush hour there will be enough of you to form an additional blockade. Stand or slowly stroll so as to prevent those who have managed to exit from hurrying to the stairs or escalator or to a connecting bus or tram. In this pinball game, you score points each time someone bumps into you or is otherwise inconvenienced and frustrated by you.

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Court Humour

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters that had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY: What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?
WITNESS: He said , 'Where am I, Cathy?'
ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?
WITNESS: My name is Susan!

ATTORNEY: Which gear were you at the time of the impact?
WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?
WITNESS: No, I just lie there

ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
ATTORNEY: Voodoo?
WITNESS: We do...
ATTORNEY: You do?
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo.

ATTORNEY: Now, doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until next morning?

ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the 20 years old, how old is he?

ATTORNEY: Where you present when this picture was taken?

ATTORNEY: So the date of the conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: Where were you at the time?
WITNESS: Getting laid.

ATTORNEY: She had three children, right?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
WITNESS: None
ATTORNEY: How many were girls?

ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by who's death was it terminated?
WITNESS: Take a guess

ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30
ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: If not, he was by the time I finished.

ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.

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CS

Uuuuh....look at the date. I haven't posted here for almost a month.
It was quite easy actually. Just didn't have anything to say or share. I read some of your blogs, but there was nothing I wanted to comment.
During the last couple of weeks, I was around in Belgium visiting some friends. Then a friend came to visit me here in Amsterdam for a week. I haven't actually had the time to be online. And when all this excitement was over, I slowly came back into the normal state of things.
That made me realize that the virtual social life, doesn't replace the real/ "live" social life and it will never will. But, when you are alone, a virtual social life is better than no social life at all.
The point is, my friends, that CS does provide something for its users and it is for free - a virtual social life, which at times helps us to feel less lonely, gives us a forum to share our thoughts and maybe even write/say some major bullshit with relative anonymity.
So one should appreciate it and refrain from all kind of misuse of this virtual social framework and try to make it a better place!

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Home and away

This weekend I was in Budapest and I finally got a chance to see my daughter after more than a month that I am here in the Netherlands. We spent some lovely time together. I tried to spoil her as much as I could (within the limits of good taste, of course), and dedicate to her as much time as possible.
She is 4 years old, she is smart, she is beautiful and above all she still loves me, even though I left her and moved here to Holland.
I know my (ex) wife will take good care of her - she was always a motherly type of character, but from time to time I have guilt trips.
On the other hand, she seems such a happy child - we talk on skype almost every day. I will make sure I visit her once a month (at least).
Also, me.....I'm much happier here than I was in Budapest, except that I miss my daughter a lot sometimes.

I am her father, and I will always be. She is my daughter, and she will always be. I will make sure to be present in her life as much as I can, even if it is from a distance.

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World ideologies as explained by reference to cows

Feudalism
You have two cows. Your lord takes some of the milk.

Pure Socialism
You have two cows. The government takes them and puts them in a barn with everyone else's cows. You have to take care of all the cows. The government gives you all the milk you need.

Bureaucratic Socialism
Your cows are cared for by ex-chicken farmers. You have to take care of the chickens the government took from the chicken farmers. The government gives you as much milk and eggs the regulations say you should need.

Fascism
You have two cows. The government takes both, hires you to take care of them, and sells you the milk.

Pure Communism
You have two cows. Your neighbors help you take care of them, and you all share the milk.

Real World Communism
You share two cows with your neighbors. You and your neighbors bicker about who has the most "ability" and who has the most "need". Meanwhile, no one works, no one gets any milk, and the cows drop dead of starvation.

Russian Communism
You have two cows. You have to take care of them, but the government takes all the milk. You steal back as much milk as you can and sell it on the black market.

Perestroika
You have two cows. You have to take care of them, but the Mafia takes all the milk. You steal back as much milk as you can and sell it on the "free" market.

Cambodian Communism
You have two cows. The government takes both and shoots you.

Militarianism
You have two cows. The government takes both and drafts you.

Totalitarianism
You have two cows. The government takes them and denies they ever existed. Milk is banned.

Pure Democracy
You have two cows. Your neighbors decide who gets the milk.

Representative Democracy
You have two cows. Your neighbors pick someone to tell you who gets the milk.

British Democracy
You have two cows. You feed them sheeps' brains and they go mad. The government doesn't do anything.

Bureaucracy
You have two cows. At first the government regulates what you can feed them and when you can milk them. Then it pays you not to milk them. Then it takes both, shoots one, milks the other and pours the milk down the drain. Then it requires you to fill out forms accounting for the missing cows.

Pure Anarchy
You have two cows. Either you sell the milk at a fair price or your neighbors try to take the cows and kill you.

Pure Capitalism
You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull.

Capitalism
You don't have any cows. The bank will not lend you money to buy cows, because you don't have any cows to put up as collateral.

Enviromentalism
You have two cows. The government bans you from milking or killing them.

Political Correctness
You are associated with (the concept of "ownership" is a symbol of the phallo centric, war mongering, intolerant past) two differently - aged (but no less valuable to society) bovines of non-specified gender.

Surrealism
You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

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The return of the king

Yeah, haven't been here for a while. Kind off ran out of ideas after spilling too much of my thoughts into this blog day after day....

I mean you know, I really would like to write something funny and careless, something that will make people laugh and comment a lot etc. Like that one about FASTING....like what the FAST?!
But.....this is not what is happening when I start blogging.

People fall asleep I guess

If I ever try to write something here, I feel very comfortable to express whatever I think. I mean after all, what is the chance I will ever meet any of you in real life and face the consequences

Or maybe it is better not to meet me?

So here is something to think about:
All your life you are looking for a perfect match, you find it, you get married, have kids (one beautiful daughter), finish your education start a career, live a nice and quiet family life

And then you realize that you are probably the worst match on earth, your wife is already seeing someone else, your career is stalled with nowhere to go forward, you have no use for your education in which you have invested so much money, and that is just the tip of the iceberg......

This is all what is going outside, but inside it is even worse.....

And then after falling falling and falling, you decide to get up and be a man for a change. You find your dream (or as close as you can get to it at the moment) job, move to another country and try to start a new life.
But this is not easy, because you really really miss your daughter who is suddenly 2000km away, you feel bad that you have left her and you begin to wonder whether it was a mistake and you should actually go back. Luckily, there is no way back....there is nothing to go back to.
Besides, you can talk to your daughter on the phone everyday, and visit her at least once a month.

But what about the love life....oh there is no time for that...you spend all your time in the office, and if not, then on the BlackBerry which like the office extension wherever you go. In the little time that you do have left, you try to keep contact with your daughter, your family and your friends.
You discover that women are somewhat reluctant to fall for a guy who has a kid and is not yet divorced.

Well, that is something you will have to work on. You are young, you still look good, but you need to visit the gym more often

And then you realize....it will be alright! Won't it?????

People on CS if you bother to read it thanks! If not I can't blame you

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I could really use a wish right now!

The weekend is over soon. It was a nice one. I wish it will be at least like this every weekend from now (or even better).

So raise your glass together with me!

And lets end with a little prayer: God, let me become the man I want to be!

If not, I can manage without you

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May 2011
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Summer

Where them girls at?!

25 Reasons Why Beer Is Better Than Women

The punchline of today

Summer time!

Amsterdam

Court Humour

CS

Home and away

World ideologies as explained by reference to cows

The return of the king

I could really use a wish right now!

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