is this what my lifes becoming
i cant stop crying
showing all my cards when i had the best pokerface before no one saw a thing
now they see everything i hold so dear 2 my heart n take it all for granted
every bit of it
my walls came down crumbling burrying me inside
all the debris bruises n cuts me
he came around nhelped me up got me out
saved my life
your all i ever needed in my life
my night n shining armour
the one to hold me in your arms made me feel so safe
nlet me bare all my deepest seecrets
never made me feel weak
your love is all i ever needed
u wake me up inside show me the meaning of true love
had methinking bout what life can bring us
all that i ask is that u never ever leave again
never make me show m lost side
now that im found i cant take the pain
u r my shooting star
i never wanna be apart or without ur kiss n touch again
u made me see that life is never meant to be taken for granted
n boy im never gonna waste it
your all i ever needed in my life
my night n shining armour
the one to hold me in ur arms
made me feel so safe n let me bare all my deepest secrets
never make me feel weak
your love is all i ever needed
all i got to offer is my unconditional love
my promise 2 u is to love n be everything u need
be always faithful
always honest
when ur in my world everything is so right n never meant to be any other way
your all i ever needed in my life
my night n shining armour
the one to hold me in your arms made me feel so safe
nlet me bare all my deepest seecrets
never made me feel weak
your love is all i ever needed
u wake me up inside show me the meaning of true love
had methinking bout what life can bring us
all that i ask is that u never ever leave again
never make me show m lost side
now that im found i cant take the pain
definitly all i ever need
definitly all ill ever want
so baby just take my hand
tell me u feel the same
i got ur back no matter how we roll
u know im down for life with u till the day i die
im always ur babygirl
the moment i laid my pretty brown eyes on you
i knew there was something about you
something i needed to know
i knew that you were my star
had me at hello caught me with your words
there was a crack
when the ice broke
neither one of us could shut up
its like we knew each other from the start
i showed u things on my phone that no one saw before
my true confessions of what you got
till you have had enough
hope thats never that you want me forever
tell me all your true ways
got me thinking right from the start
cuz your my star
the one i wish for
before i go to sleep
never knew that youd be here
still hypnotizing me with your words
every time we talk i lose control
my mind races
my hearts beating
you know what you do to me
n we never let it go
your words so seductive
n every thought of u consumes me
your always my shining star
to guide me in the dark
i love the way i feel
everytime i see the way you look at me
the desire we both share
burns so deep in our souls
i try to bottle it up so it never dies down
but at times its too much
to keep inside i gotta let in shine
your always there when i need a friend
always there when i need to share
could cry n u wouldnt care
youd still be there
so glad i finally found you
now maby youll settle down
n be the man you always have been
n know no matter what weve got each other
i promise to never let you down
to never put you down to to love n cherish every min i have
i promise to never let us get away
im always gonna be your girl
as long as you promise me the same
how u make me feel
confused n lonely
i am surrounded by many yet feel alone
wanted the life the love im shown
now i want just one person
dont know what to do
who to choose
things r harder than i thought
living this stupid life
i need a sign a vision that is clear
dont wanna wait
dont wanna feel the pain
sick of crying
n sick of dying inside
do i choose the one who wants me when hes lonely
do i choose the one who denys me then tells me he loves me when im gone
do i choose the one who calls me babygirl n wants to be there
do i choose the ones who lust me yet barely know me
the ovious choice may be clear
but the thoughts i proclaim r just minor
the pain is sharp
the words sting
my heart beats
yet my minds unsure
time to sit back n re calculate
search within
built my walls up just to breathe
soon u will see
who i choose
maby one day ill choose
but for now im choosing me
WHEN I LOOK IN YOUR EYES
I SEE SOMETHING LOOKING BACK AT ME
A LIGHT IN YOUR EYES
REMINDS ME OF THE BRIGHTEST STAR IN THE NIGHT SKY
A SMILE THAT GOES STRAIGHT TO MY HEART
EVERY TOUCH SENDS A CHILL
AND EVERY WORD YOU SPEAK
MAKES EVERYTHING COMPLETELY
UNDERSTOOD
BEING IN YOUR ARMS
MAKES ME FEEL SO RIGHT
AND WHERE I BELONG
SAFE AND SECURE
LOVED AND COMPLETELY YOURS
wonders if this is how life plays out
do we fall so hard just to crack
or shatter into a million pieces.
do we get a chance to sweep up the pieces
or is there too much pain
2 see the life we shared fall so quickly
2 shame me 2 pieces
my hearts breaking and all i can do is seek it
2 be in your arms 2 turn back time
i wanted this life the life that was mine
the only way thru this is to tell you the truth
the truth i told n you made me regret it
i told you everything n you ignored it
so now im told it will be ok
but how is it ok if i cant change it
in your arms n in your mind is where i want 2 be taken
yet your so far n so distant that the darkness is overtaken
the light no longer is shining when the moon is left naked
so heres 2 another heart breaking someday i hope u just take it
stop my pain n tears n tell me we will make it
now i lay me down to sleep
praying that he holds me close in his dreams
breathing right beside me
whispering sweet dreams baby i love you
wrap around me making me feel so safe
lord thanks for making my life complete
if i shall die before i wake
take my soul n keep it safe
please leave a part of me behind
that can love n cherish him always n forever
amen
hide behind my walls
the mask cant drop
im so scared to be seen
im scared to trust
what if i let it down n get hurt again
the blanket is falling with u
n its scaring me completely
i wanna scream n cry n hide myself
all over again
what if i let it down n see that what im scared of
is right there in front of me
how do u trust
how do u allow urself to be seen
im so used to being hidden
i want the walls to drop like the time square ball
on new yrs
the glitter that falls is the new beginning
the new start of such a wonderful life
the guy i was scared to let see my walls go down
is the man who may be mr right
mr right is u.
the pain i feel
makes me weak
with hunger
the longing i desire
lost within the thunder
the lightening strikes me
yet im still standing
how do i survive
this sound of terror
i tremble inside
yet look strong as ever
this life i live
is nothing above any other
theres ppl worse of then me
yet people who shine brighter than me
the only thing u see
is the lightening that strikes me
that lights me up
but not yet saves me
saves me from this pain
this craze
this terrible pain
ive given the best fight
yet i stay in place
sinking deeper n deeper
in this phase
they say lightening never strikes the same place 2
yet after every round of glory days
far away u hear the rumble begin
until the day u get a break
n things change
the storm begins to calm
the noises fade
the sun begins to shine
and u hope u dont fall
fall back into the eye
the eye that once shattered ur soul.
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