how i feel about these boys poem by nikki

how u make me feel

confused n lonely

i am surrounded by many yet feel alone

wanted the life the love im shown

now i want just one person

dont know what to do

who to choose

things r harder than i thought

living this stupid life



i need a sign a vision that is clear

dont wanna wait

dont wanna feel the pain

sick of crying

n sick of dying inside





do i choose the one who wants me when hes lonely

do i choose the one who denys me then tells me he loves me when im gone

do i choose the one who calls me babygirl n wants to be there

do i choose the ones who lust me yet barely know me



the ovious choice may be clear

but the thoughts i proclaim r just minor

the pain is sharp

the words sting

my heart beats

yet my minds unsure



time to sit back n re calculate

search within

built my walls up just to breathe

soon u will see

who i choose

maby one day ill choose

but for now im choosing me