so im a member of the art website called deviant art.com im doing good on there i have over 800 pieces of art on there after 2 years of being a member. iv'e been working on a bunch of new things lately but im also starting to fun out of ideas. i did blacklight art and i think it turned out well my profile pic on here is one of the pics i did. i feel like im rambling lol i dont want to annoy people so ill wrap this blog up now lol so if anyone has an idea of what i could sketch or do photography of let me know :]
so is anyone else watching the new season of house?? i watched the the first episode of it and i loks good to me so far the next new one is on tonight :]
whats hurts more then being depressed is it being obvious and still no one seems to care enough to help you or stop you from hurting yourself...
just when you think people might care..your sitting there in tears and realize that no one will try to stop you.
the people you thought would always be there for you have all vanished and once again its its come to this. you never wanted to feel this way you never asked for this pain and sometimes you wonder if you did something to deserve this hurt..
i thought i had friends who would stick by me and care i was wrong cuz when i needed them most they werent there.
its like screaming for help in a crowded room and nobody looks up. you then realize that you are all alone.
you ask for help and no one wants to help you. you say you want to end it all but nobody tries to stop you..thats what really hurts.
just some of my thoughts dont take it the wrong way i wrote this while in tears...
you see her sitting there you think "shes so sad"
but its not that shes sad.
shes simply just given up on pretending to be happy..
shes tired of getting up every morning, putting on her fake smile
telling herself "today will be better"
she doesnt want to be an inconvenience or a bother anymore..
she has stopped looking for the light switch in the dark room she calls her life...
just something new i wrote that seems to be right for me..
please..dont act like you care..
dont attempt to be my light
don't try to make all my pain go away..
don't try to tell me everything will be alright..
don't tell me to stay alive a little longer..
don't say what im doing to myself is stupid
don't pretend you've been where i am
you'll never understand..
no one will....
im alone in this world..
nobody to stand beside me..
nobody to share my pain and distress with
no true place to call home
no reason to be here
you didn't think anything would be this imperfect
were lost
we spend all our lives searching for ways to feel
ways to feel alive...
our heart beat isn't enough...
sometimes it requires self inflicted pain....
a poem i wrote that fits me...
the girl who was unbreakable..broke..
the girl who seemed so strong crumbled...
the girl who laughed it all off.. cried...
the girl who never stopped trying..
finally gave up....
this is something i wrote it fits me well...
there was a thunder storm last night not fun at all im terrified of thunder i wanted to cry lol i feel like a wimp XD any way the sorm lasted for about a hour i was ok afterwards :]
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