And it is some thing when they be come your family.
It is so weird and had her for a short time and then her
kidney shout down and liver and she did not live to
along .
Took her to the doctor and she died .
And it is hard for me but i am getting over it and she will
be on my mind and glad that she is out of her pain and then
I move on and then get in to write books and try not to
think about it .
Then it good as long as it last.
A friend told me about that saying and that is the truth.
Will life moves on .
Lost my cat Shadow.
I am going to buy fish this time.
And then I can watch them.
I am going to do that .
And get good size tank and then get some
pretty fish.
And sit them on my computer desk.
And watch them while I write.
People say that is relaxing to watch them .
So that will be cool.
I have relised People come in my life for reason.
For me to learn some thing I need to work on.
And that helps me grow and understand what happen in the
past and then how I felt at the time.
Some stay for along time and some time people leave right
way.
I sure learn and this time I try to not do that again.
When I get angry.
Now I am learn to deal with them.
To walk away.
Relaise I have feelings and all this time did
not relised what those feelings are.
Now started to dealing with those feeling and now
I am started to feel.
Then getting angry.
I can relised what it is.
And be for I wanted a pill to take those
feeling way.
It is ok to feel that way and deal with it.
I get over whelm then get angry and try to deal
with it.
It has been snowing where I am at in Idaho.
And never seen that much snow for so long.
It gets slick and then the rain comes and then
the ice and it gets bad.
Then you can hurt your self on the snow , rain, ice.
It can break bone.
It is amazing what snow will do .
I have been careing so much baggest lattely.
I sit in my office one night and cryed .
And not really in thing I was crying for.
I just let it go and said it is gone.
The past is gone.
Don't wanted to remember what the past was.
I seen guys on there profile say .
No baggies and never knew what they mean.
And i relised they say no past and they did not wanted to
hear about it and now I understand.
I don't wanted to care that in more .
Or hear about it .
So leaved all my family at the door and walked out
of there life and leaved them at the door.
With the baggest .
And i am started a new life .
Will it sure feels good not to have all that.
I do learn lot on the internet'
I am on here and I do lot of think.
And what I wanted to work on this year.
I wanted a friend to spent time with and have fun and laught
and have lot of fun.
Go and do things and go home and write about it and make a
storie out of it and have fun.
I like to feed the ducks.
I love to fish and I can put worms on the hooks.
I like to catch those big fish and take pictures of it.
I like to take pictures of things.
I don't like to cook .
But will help in the kitchen.
But you need some one to talk to .
I am .
But I don't wanted to be in one Girlfriend and I just
wanted a freind please.
I sit here and wanted some one to come and see me .
Have a nice day
I love Halloween and dress up as a good witch and then that
makes me happy.
I live for Halloween to come around.
I love that Halloween movies .
What you can laught and have fun with.
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