I have been single for 3 yrs this past Valentines Day, divorced for 2 yrs as of Aug. 25, 2007. I spent the first year trying to find myself again. the second year, I started to get on dating sites, and make myself "available". I then went into this panicky "search" for my Mr. Right, only to find that I was "grasping" onto men that would pay me any kind of attention at all, never really finding what I was looking for. My New years resolution was to stop "looking" and be patient and just let him find me. Since I have called off the search, I have had more dates, learned to have fun and be myself. I've made some really great friends on this site... most of them on the other side of the world from me, but none the less.. still great friendships. I haven't given up on my prince charming, but I have realized that it is gonna take time for him to find me. So... in the meantime, I keep myself pretty busy in my spare time, going to my sons baseball games, going to karoake (I LOVE to sing), working to make my business even bigger ( I do home lingerie parties), and chatting online with my friends and meeting new ones daily. I guess you could say that I'm trying to work on the woman that some lucky guy is gonna love for the rest of my life!!!
written on 10/27/92
"If I could make one wish"
If I could make one wish,
And know it would come true
I'd wish that I could bring you back
So I could be with you.
Then all the heartaches and and tears
Would surely go away,
I'd look into your deep blue eyes
And "I love you" is what I'd say.
I'd make your troubles go away
I'd wipe away your fear,
I'd make all your dreams come true,
If only you were here.
When people tell me that you're gone,
It brings me so much pain;
Because I know you're still here with me
I know I'm not insane.
I feel you in my presence
Each and every day,
I hear you softly whisper
"I'll never go away".
If I could make one wish
we would never have to part
Sometimes I feel my wish came true
'Cause you live within my heart.
in memory of Dewayne Coles
6/3/1965 to 4/26/1992
No one knows whats in my heart,
or seems to care to find out.
only the ones that i've lost,
truly knows what I'm all about.
I struggle to find that happy face,
to hide the everyday pain.
hoping to hide my lonely heart,
that's driving me insane.
Why is it so hard for me,
to find a love that's true,
someone that could want me
Please help me find the clue.
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