i have been turned down 120 times in the last idk 3 months. IRL and online. sometimes a mixture of both. Been called ugly a loser etc. In both realms. I think that i wont find anyone that wants to even go see a movie. Here is what i mean:
I got a date some how. (craigslist dont judge me), she text and called me. Turned out i knew her from class. She then tells me what movie, i say you decided i took the night off for a movie so i dont care if we dont click. at this stage i am feeling really good. take a shower. then a mexican shower (i am allowed to say that because i am mexican), so i not only look great but smell great.
I go to pick her up. her brother is outside, he is like oh you must be the guy.
"yeah i am the guy", i replied
"ok. ill go tell her you are here." answered back as he is going into the house.
10 minutes go by. 15etc.
sshe comes out says sorry i have to fix things. or something along the lines of that
i am sitting in my vehicle knowing its not going anywhere and anywhere fast.
she texts me saying that i am the f* ugliest person ever and to leave. I am not even playing when i say this either.
i go and sit in front of the movies. her and her friends walk past me.
one stops and asks why am i so sad.
before i could reply back the girls behind her say because he is ugly and has a small...... yeah.
these are the kinds of women that i have around me. they go to college.(i am almost out of college) and they are b and snitch.
so idk what i am going to do now. i am full of spite and hate. I am a very nice guy these feeling are horrible. I have had plenty of girl friends over the years. (only one that mattered). i just dont know if i can put myself out there again because i am fearful that ill turn into a mena person. idk why i even wrote this for.
guess i am just sad miserable etc. Heck i have a date next week but i know that wont go over well. (she is 10yrs older than me too which is ok i like who she is not her age) w/e
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