As the chill of the dawn encases all.....while others someplace else prepare for the night...one thing in common.....another day....another step in the journey of time.
We crave...we strive......hoping in the gift that is life.
Sometimes lost..in the reality that is. Time flows...things change...we change.
Our bodies tell us so. We are but objects at the whims of time.
And yet....in the mirrors of our souls.....we discover the memories...the things that were.....those that could have been....those that we sometimes wish to have been.
Time whispers in the silence......it is. And in the NOW.
It is all we have. So we begin again.....another day, another NOW.
To hope, to need, to do. And with the colors of life to play with.....we carry on.
And so....the journey continues.
And what a journey it has been.....so far.
Wow....last time I contributed was 2010....gee weeze....time sure flies by.....
A lot has changed since.....and yet....all seems the same as before....older....not necessarily wiser....still striving to get where I would like to be....even if even that seems to have changed along the way...
The more time passes, the more disillusioned I seem to become with the world around me.....or rather....the manner in which we in the West seem to insist to do things....the more we 'advance'....the messier it seems to become....and the more complicated....
Lately I have started spending more time down in the fields I have down the valley where I live....and the simple solitude....the immense feeling of belonging it provides.....makes me crave even more the ability to pullout the plug entirely and get off the grid....just to be able to spend more time there and disappear off the radar of all the departments, paperwork, hassles and nerds that support all of that.....just be....
Ah well....reality dictates otherwise at this moment in time....so I guess will keep on trucking along for the time being.....just a bit of mental freewheeling....
Had a look at the forums.....lot of chatter....so came here instead....
Today circumstances dictated I had time to watch live stream the Chilean scenario unfolding.....
I've had so much negative being thrown in my face this last decade from TV....wars....people dying.....disasters.....economic melt down.......and what nots....that it made me feel tired.....
And then today happened......in today's world it was bound to happen....but we all witnessed it in our respective countries....the whole world watched it happening live
Human technology......different nations.....and somehow.....an inpeccable operation in its finest details of getting those people out of there....on live TV......
Irrespective of all factors.....somehow I feel myself saying.....
.....well done Chile......the world applauds you....
....when disaster strikes.....humanity shines...if it pulls together.......
Age turns you into an observer...you somehow can absorb so much more then when you were younger.
I host people...that is my business....have three houses in a cluster that rent out for short holiday lets...and this weekend there was an end of the season party organized here on the Island.....and that kind of attracts a few hundred young kids to come over for the weekend....so was full house....
Must admit....was a bit tense about it all....kids out to party may be over boisterous sometimes....but this lot turned out to be pretty civilized....so no hassle in general....
As I got my act together this morning...I noticed that they were still filtering in.....at 9.00.a.m....whereby all the neighborhood was actually starting their day....the girls still all dressed up to kill....the guys trying their best to look cool....all pretty much hazed out from an all night of partying.....
And I couldn't help remember the days when I too.....was frivolous enough to spend an entire night frolicking....boozing...and all the other trimmings that go along with partying....
It did leave a ting of sad craving must admit....but then again...guess I had my fair share of that in my time too....
So ultimately....as I keep my eye on them just in case.....btu can't at the same time feel glad....that there is still the possibility for young people....to be frivolous and do things that will disappear from their lives....as soon as life catches up to them.....
Oh for the young man....who is wise enough...to make a fool of himself....
....yesterday I went to watch Avatar.....well worth the effort...especially watching it in 3D.....
...and this morning woke up with this thought on my mind.....
...probably if Hollywood tried to do a movie of some sorts relating to true stories of a parallel nature.....the movie would have fallen flat....but creating a sci fi imaginary dreamland did the job.....
...but the underlying situations are so real it is not true....
...on one hand the arrogance of Power....of those whose creed is Might is Right.....on the other.....the consciousness that sees beyond the greed......that takes time to understand the magic that is the world we live in....and the breathe of freedom and life it emits.....
...and in my mind....and from what I have experienced here in the various threads that have over the months discussed the USA....it is the two facets that make up this unique and incredible nation....
...there is one side of the America we know that abounds in arrogance.....an arrogance that imposed itself and caused havoc to innumerable cultures starting from the Native Americans in mid/late 19th century.....to innumerable South American nations and others around the globe in the 20th.....
...then there is the other side to America....the one that has given humanity the greatest achievements in scientific, medical, artistic, ecological and humanitarian fields........the one that has shown it's presence in the recent tragedy that hit Haiti....
...two sides that live side by side like a Jekyll and Hyde.....
...it is these facets that make America......our hope is that like the story depicted in Avatar.....humanity overcomes the greed....and hope of a brighter future becomes reality.....
...and if there is anybody who can do this....to stop the madness, the greed and the destruction......it is only America that can.
It is not a wise thing to believe too highly of oneself.......
...it is only human to question.....to seek beyond....to achieve comparison.....
...time however teaches you that which you perceive....does not always turn out to be.....
...those who you made out to be stronger then yourself in the past...fail miserably and loose out to simple challenges.....
...others who you ignored as incompetent......turn into survivors with stories to tell....
...in all this....along the journey....you witness the changes....the questioned asked.....the answers craved....
...and at the end....you realize.....it was just a simple step that took years to be achieved.....
...it was not those around you that made the difference.....it was closer to home.....
...it was the me, the myself and the I......that has survived....the challenges.......the storms......the rough seas.......and yet come this far.....
...looking back........it was all so futile to compare......for ultimately......it was you and you alone...that stood tall....
...such is the nature of our journey.
...somewhat of a relaxed morning....sun out....and the year is coming to an end....
...geeze....celebrating the new millennium seems like yesterday....ten years....a decade......has whizzed by....and a new one is round the corner.....
...every ten years one tends to look back and take a good look....what has changed.........what the journey has provided.....and where we seem to be heading....
..I find that the arrogance of youth has now totally disappeared....with a smile I recall the times I made a fool of myself because of it.....and how if I had to rewind those years....I would do it exactly in the same way all over again....
..I find that all those things I craved along the years.....have occurred one by one....possibly later then what I would have wished for....but come they did....
..I find that I no longer take anything for granted.....life has a habit of blowing away all that you thought you had solidly built....it is not your surroundings that matter.....but your inner capability to adapt....to move on even if it means getting your hands dirty and sweating doing it....
..I find nothing is absolute truth....not what you have been told is so....not religion....not politics....not the media.....it all depends from the perspective one is looking from....my truth may be lies to someone on the opposite end of the spectrum...
...and finally....I find that I am content....to have come so far....to have loved and been loved....to have suffered pain as I have enjoyed joy.....and look forward once again....to carry on with my journey into the next phase........with a yearning for discovery....of that which I still have to learn....
...and to all those I have met along the way.....may the new year bring forth happiness.......
Always had the inclination of hating Mondays...possibly a lingering effect from the years I spent as a DJ....Mondays were always hangover days then...
..times have changed....and as maturity took hold....responsibilities and priorities changed accordingly....and Mondays became the day when all that has to go wrong does....plus some more you didn't think about....
....it is when pending bills are dropped in your post box.....when the phone calls you get are from your accountant to advise you your tax payment is due.....and when the weather also turns grey and it starts raining....
...so.....to hell with it.....let it roll....what else can one do really? Stay moping and getting down because of it?.....
...to be fair....it's just another grey Monday.....been there...done that...and had worst too.....it will pass....and the sun is bound to come out again one of these days.....soooooo....
....let's go for a coffee in town....at least like that won't hear the telephone if it rings again.....
...who knows....may even meet up some interesting lady to kill some time with.....
Everytime I spend time on the threads....I am always amazed at the huge amount of people who seem scared of being on their own....
....it seems that a lot feel that fulfillment may only be achieved if the perfect 'love' can be found....and then the magic wand is going to strike and they live happily ever after...
...ah well...maybe Hollywood has had too much effect on the way we think...
...I am not saying falling in love with someone is a fad.....far from it....I count myself lucky to have been in love, fallen in love, and been loved in my life.....and each of those episodes of my past when it occurred remain warm and certainly pleasant memories in my mind...
...but life does not depend on having the other someone by your side...it may enhance it if it happens....but in the meantime life goes on.....and believe me....it is a very short trip....you wake up one morning...and find half your life is gone....
...so my point is....by all means keep all your options open...grab the chance if it happens to cross your path....but do not linger by the wayside waiting for it to do so...
...live your life to the full...do those things that you wish to do.....and now is the time......before it is too late....
...love yourself first...and be happy with what it gives you....the rest will happen on it's own...if it is meant to happen it will....
Been away from CS Threads for a few months now....only came back a few days back.....and I was blown away by the ridiculous amount of religion being posted.....
...even worst.....the amount of hate.....aggression.....intolerance.....and sheer anger spewed was mindblowing.....
...and no.....it wasn't radical Muslim or 'other' religions that were doing it....it was modern day Crusaders....supposedly calling themselves Cristian who were at the helm of it all....
I was born in a Catholic family....and raised since birth in the 'Faith'.....up until I started asking question which were hushed up and went unanswered....by ten I was already wondering....by fifteen I was getting to know better....by twenty had definitely made my mind up....
I am Atheist......or for a more balanced title....Agnostic..... I believe in the freedom of each and every one to choose....and I will fight for the right of each of us to believe in what he or she wants to believe.....
....but I will never accept any form of religion being shoved forcefully down anybody's throat....it goes against my concept of democracy.....even more so when it is coming from one religion that is supposedly preaching universal love and brotherhood.....
I am coming of the opinion that it is not Islam we have to worry about....but the fundamental Christians who are taking us back to the times of the Middle Ages....who refute science.....and propose instead that eternal bliss will only occur once one and all prostrate themselves and repent.......
To each and all who are doing this on CS threads.....GO TO HELL.....of whichever form...size ...or shape that may be in your crazy minds....
It rains.....not just normal rain.......but the rain inside.....
just like winter does.....some days bring the chill......where nothing warms the heart....nothing attracts the mind.....nothing fills the empty soul.....
....those days when hope seems to hide somewhere in the folds of your mind......instead you feel overwhelmed.....the noise that humanity emits deafens......and you crave the silence.....you crave the aloneness.......
awed by the stupidity of those who believe still in the art of war...tainted by the power......intoxicated by grandeur.....lost in world of without reason....
the choice between life and death is random......some are meant to live......other are meant to die......for the cycle of things never changes......it just moves on......
Grey skies are hovering tonight.....and in the darkness of the rains......we go to sleep......wishing that the sun will shine again....tomorrow......
It's a foggy, grey, windy and rainy Monday morning.....bad enough being Monday....but this makes one wonder why I bothered to get up....
Wasn't intending to get on here really....had other things planned for the day.....but it doesn't always work out the way you want it to.....
And once again I read other people's thought, feelings....and frustrations.....makes me wonder....
so much fear, so much loss......a lot seem to be searching.......waiting.....for that special day, that special one...in the meantime loosing sight of the things that surround us in the now.......
.....in the darkness that permeates our present days, when humanity seems to have lost it's meaning....we listen to silence within.....and wonder....
How often do we hear the sounds that come from within? The language of light......of love....of HOPE.....
Make the time......and listen......for at the end, we are all the same.
We are nothing more then children of the stars........lost in the current that flows........along the journey of life.
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