I've met a man 8 years ago and keep on calling each other as "Darling"... During that 8 years, he rarely spent a weekend with me, never let me stay at his home overnight and never bring me along for any of his social function, or any travel together. I think it's his character as he explained he needs quiet weekend alone, doesn't like to go out on holiday etc etc. But one Saturday late afternoon when I was in a shopping mall, I saw him walking around with a young lady.. and then another Sunday when I called his home, loud ladies' voice with loud music, he has a party at home... and the Christmas just past.. he went UK to spend Christmas with his parents, and when I called him, he's not at his parents home, but at Milton Keynes, with a lady's voice next to him...I asked who's that lady's voice, he said it's his mother's voice... Yesterdy afternoon (Saturday), I feel very happy he date me home for lunch, when it's 3 p.m. he told me I've to leave at 4:30 p.m. I asked him why, he said he has a function at night.. I stay to watch TV and he goes to shower before we go, and I walk to kitchen for a drink passing by his room I listened his telephone conversation with a girl (the girl's voice is loud enough to let me know it's a girl) talking about that evening function together. When I went to his toilet before we left the house, I found his mirror box inside with girl's stuff, comb, coesmatic, contact lens drop, etc. etc.. when we are on the bus, I asked who is his partner tonite, he said "none", wheneverI asked who live in his hose, he always said "none", when he's at UK I asked who travel with him together, he said "none". Yesterday, I asked why he goes to Milton Keynes, he said it's the place passing by before going to his sister's home. I asked "your mother go with you to Milton Keynes?" he said no...
I feel very tired keep on believe him, should I still trust him? I always hope what he told me is true.. but I know very well all of them are not true.. why he said he like me on one hand and then has to be so sweet to another girl on another hand? Why one girl is not good enough to him? Is it all men like to have so many many girls at one time??..
I feel very tired keep on searching and searching, I just want a simple life, staying stable with one good man to me, one and only one.. why my man I met has to have so many women, why one is not good enough to him??
Is all men like that??
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