One year older...
When I'm young I feel delight for my birthday.. When getting old.. I feel sad still single keep searching love for every web site in vain...I can't understand why it's so difficult to meet someone who is willing to share life together to love me in real...
Should I feel guilty to a man who call me darling for years but I keep searching love here and there?
One is good enough to me indeed... I hate keep on searching... But this one never willing to spend a holiday Sat Sun Public holiday with me together... Never a trip together.. Never a festival together.. Never a social functioning together for the past ten years...can I believe I have a darling in real or just in dream?...
I really doubt I should think "better than none" or "none is better"?..
I feel very painful whenever I think about why I cannot enjoy the kind of love and attention from a normal kind of darling... should I have the right to find a real love to enjoy real companionship or should feel guilty to my existing so call "darling" whom I cannot feel his existence at all in every holiday sun sat festivals social function.. Never his show up anywhere.. Any times in my hopes.. Where is HE I always ask.. Why I have to be so lonely all the times....
Time flies..One year older again... I'm still so lonely here... Sailing in the endless sea... When and where can I park the shore to settle down? I make a same wish every year... When can it comes true???....
Comments (4)
None is better!!! Never give up, just don't try too hard.....one day perhaps you will find that someone who will really love you.
I wish you all the best!!
If that is what our.
It will be for us.
But if it is not our.
The answer is not our.
Happiness is the heart always.
I wish you well