I feel at times my life is at a standstill.
I can't move forward.
I keep thinking about that horrible morning when my husband
passed.
I can remember it like it was yesterday maybe its because
the one year anniversary is approaching (oct 20th).
His presense is still very much around my house.
I can't get myself to change a thing around here because
I want to keep his memory around for as long as I possibly
can.
16 years is a very long time to just dismiss it in my opinoin.
We have been thru everything a couple could possibly go thru.
No matter what when the world was cruel we always had each other.
We were lovers,bestfriends,each others rock.
I was doing okay for awhile but the pain is creeping up on me
again and I just don't know what to do about it.
He definetly had an unfinished life and that pisses me off.
I have to make me going to the cemetary a priority.
I need to so see him and be with him.
I know hes not here phsyically but spiritually hes here.
I would give anything for just one last moment with him.
I never got the chance to tell him how much I loved him
and how important he was to me.
I don't wish this pain on no one.
If someone is going thru it out there I feel ya.
Peace!
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