i just met up and the bank with my ex,we both behaved well but she started crying and although ive been feeling nothing but hate for this persons behavior towards me, i couldnt help feeling bad. i loved this person with all i had(which is what she took)
and want to move on without causing her or i any more pain if possible.i felt hurt and betrayed for her actions,but looking back im sure i had my part in our break up too.anyway we cut one more loose string and hopefully we can do the rest of the property division in a similar way.asap. its not easy but we must do what we must do and i must thank the good people from c.s. for their support and inspirations.but still no date!!!lol. im somewhat happy though.
hi ive recently seperated from a ten year relationship and although somewhat relieved i cant help but feel depressed and lonely.i work late not to go home and i cant sleep thinking of everything i would like to forget.my marriage wasnt the greatest and i wasnt very happy or should i say we wasnt happy and i guess we both stayed as long as we did, not to be alone.now im alone and lonely and wish i could get over this hump soon. i think women look at profiles but dont respond or is it that i havent got the look or whatever it is women are looking for?
im trying to get over all the stuff my ex did to me im a gentlemen which is why i wont go into what she did.i dont like speaking ill of others(even if its true)but the bottom line is that every time she comes to mind(which i try not)i feel this anger inside. reconciliation is totally out of the question and i want nothing to do with this person ever again.all i pray for is that i get over these feelings. i dont think its healthy or productive.but the ending of a ten year relationship is not easy (for some people anyway) anyway god bless & thanks for reading my rantings. im sure i will find my heart again as soon as i find the trash can it was thrown in.lol
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