Life is changing - once again...

Life is always changing - there is no standing still. Sometimes it changes for the better of things, and others, well, we're left picking up the pieces trying to figure out what life is once again.

For me, it's kinda in the middle right now.

4 Months ago I would of told you that I came from a family of 4. My mom, dad and younger brother. Today I stand here and tell you it's from a family of 2; my mom and I. What's changed? Well a divorce, that's what. Was it for the better? You betcha. My "dad" (I now call him Richard), was/is a violent, abusive, mind playing a-hole from hell. 21 years of it has left me kinda bitter on the "daddy" home front. My brother? Falls into his little mind games continuely, and get this, he's going to move in with my "dad" because he wants to look after him. Did I mention my "dad" is physically disabled and hasn't worked a day since 1994? Mostly by his own doings from when he was younger, he has a list a mile long of what's wrong with him and a room full of doctors that are beyond the point of caring anymore. Harsh? Ya, but seriously, it's the truth.

So when my mom finally decided after 23 years of being married and over 27 years of knowing this guy that enough was enough, you would think it'd be the happiest day of my life? Yes and no. Yes because the prick was gone, leaving me alone during the day (I haven't worked for a few months, until now). Leaving our house peaceful. No more calling the cops in the middle of the night because he wanted to pick a fight with someone and dishes ended up being thrown at the person etc.

But did he make this whole thing easy for us? HELL NO. That would just be the picture perfect ending to a life of horrible misfortunes (boy, I do sound bitter.... sorry).

Basically, it's been a rough going since January 4th. Our house is sold and we're to be out of here by April 14th. And to make matters only better, my mom and her new boyfriend, who recently purchased a house together to live in have broken up for the time being. I'm sure if I give this 24hrs this will all change. So where my mom and I are living as of April 14th is still TBA, but I've decided that I'm just going to get my own appartment. If she wants to come live with me that's fine. But I just need some stability in my life right now and feel this is the best place for me.

So wish me luck - I'm going to need it. It's going to be different, but I think a good type of different...


~Jess