Reflections of today...

I've been reflecting a lot lately on my life, where it's been and where it is now... as well as where it's heading.

I've also been thinking a lot about my presence on singles sites such as this one. I ask myself, am I really still trying to chase this dream of a perfect love to fulfill me and complete me... or am I actually really just still searching out of habit? I'm inclined to believe it's the latter, and I find myself surprised to realize that it's no longer as important to me as it once was.

For so many years, finding my Miss Right has been at the forefront of my mind; It has always taken priority over everything else, it has always consumed my thoughts. Despite all the disappointments and failed relationships along the way, I always kept hope within and I never lost sight of my true goal in life... which simply, was to find "her", whoever that would be.

These days I feel I am transitioning towards a different direction in my life. I am not entirely closed to the idea of love now, but yet... I no longer feel that I can't survive without it either. For me, that is a major milestone because I am finally becoming able to envision a life for myself where things don't revolve around my quest to fulfill some romantic daydream of true love...

One step closer to accepting life on it's own terms, rather than insisting it adhere to my preconceived notions of how it all should be.