left to wonder..or maybe to learn

If your on this site most likely your single,maybe looking for a pen pal,or just to hook up. Well I'm here to learn. I've been a "assh$£€" in the relationship. I've been the good guy,one thing I have not been is the "right man".

I know you can relate in some way on this. I thought I had the good life with my girl. Soon after things..they changed I became paranoid,one night she left. I thought the worse that could of happened did. It wasn't the same after that. Fighting,unreasonable assumptions everything turned on me..

It took me awhile to get back on my feet. I tryed partying,anything I could to block out what happened. I went on thinking I didn't do anything on until I met her. She was beautiful,smart and like I was twisted in my own thoughts. Yet she was the victim of her own boyfriend. They broke up and still tryed to work things out. She knew all the right words to say to me. To make me realize I was like him. I felt so discussed hearing them fight. The words and assumptions he used were exactly like the ones I used a long time ago.

She taught me what its like to be in her shoes. How much it hurt to be accused and questioned all the time. She showed me what I was. I will admit I was like him. I was wrong in the relationship. Not because she was always a angel. because I'm the one that ripped the relationship apart.

I will never be perfect but I won't make the same mistake again nor will I promise anything unless I'm way to sure I can.