slander me

I totally agree a biological link with somone
does not give the right to unconditional friendship
and love there are conditions that have to be met.
as my life started with questions unanswered I had
often wondered what was so wrong and as the yrs,
went on more unanswerwed circumstances happened a
example was my mother bitter like my granmother at
times while a kid I was fun loving and mostly no
troubles to them at all and I was rather shocked by
my mothers comments one night I drove her to the
store on the return she out of guilt asks me why I
wont talk to her or father as i kept silent she
then explodes and says(I'll drive you out of your
ever loving mother fking mind) my family never had
the insight of intelligence to suspect problems us
kids had and I never seen them personally talk
expressing any. so I was surprized.and as I often
think back in time she was doing as she spoke of.
stupid,was later my conclusion of her,my other
parents a punk.and like I said I never caused any
trouble for family yet later in life I sent both
back to there parents home to live with them for
there behavor.(nice example huh they didnt like that)
as for me I almost belived that there was something
seriously wrong with me at times as I couldnt
distinsih between reality and a dream and I lived
unknownly on her guilt trips (traumitized me )
as I later victomized myself the professoinals
didnt help just record and file no discussoins
or requirments to do anyfurther more.
so the dilemma continues.its a sad world of
authority that governs us.