thinking...
Got tired rolling up and down the room and thinking, thinking, thinking... Actually, just trying to collect myself and get rest from planning. Unsuccess... how the hell to get out of here and go somewhere, where I am really needed? where is that place, where nobody will stick their finger into me saying: "She doesn't have good education!". "She is working shitty jobs!",.She is that, she is another... Who said that education is criteria to sort people? And the job? Who gave them a right to decide for me what i have to do? I'm just doing what I feel like, is this the reason to be judged on every single step? I thought that we live in free world and doing things what we wanna do... Unsuccess... I'm wrong again.. I cannot stop asking myself.. Is it realy so ridiculous to work volunteering job instead of keeping butt in soft armchair somewhere in office? I just wanna be free instead of having someone spluttering above my head... I know what I want from my life and I don't give a shit what says the best friend of my neighbour.. I was living on criterias build of other for too long. That's not fair first of all for me. My spirit goest away from here for past couple years... If only... Since I waas teenager I wanted to get out of here and head forward where people are equal, but now i have to stop and think, where they are? Does such a place exist in this world? I just was waiting for a moment, when the world will become one equal nation, but looks like i will never see that... Did you ever think how tiring is to wait for a miracle to come? I thought I know, but I was wrong... bloody wrong... Can you tell me who cares about person as a personality not just "one of them", who cares about dreams, aims, hopes... I don't know any of them personaly, but would like to know... I would like to find (even if I will have to dig from under the ground) people who still has spiritual flight inside themselves, who still wanna go, find, build, learn, explore, give, teach, help... Who cares about simple things, like feelings, trust, care... For who things like nationality, race, social status, financial condition and stuff like that don't make a sense to put people from big to small... who thinks, that we are all equal society, worth to get the same in this world, no matter who we are and what we are thinking of...
Comments (5)
It sounds like you have an idea of what you enjoy in life from a career standpoint. It sounds like you enjoy helping others even when there is no monetary gain for you. You are still young and active. Have you ever heard of the Peace Core? That is a place to do good, volunteer, teach and make a difference.
You sound like a good person. Find what makes you happy and see how you can turn it into the career you want! Google searches can really help with this.
I did this in a way, I did not like seeing how kids with disabilities were taught so I started my own business called handicapable living, it is a lot of work and I have not been able to get it running yet, but I will because that is the goal I set for myself.
Best of Luck,
Try consider the world as the scenery of your own path. and nothing more..
do not be angry whta's not, take the energy and stay away of everything that changes yours to negative.
the people you seek are out there. travel while your young, collect the scarce positivity from everyone/everything, be patient and these people will cross your road.
francesco
if you find a career you truely love...
you will never work a day in your life!!
cheers and be happy