I'm Tired!

I never done this before, blog, but I wanna get it a shot!

Here we go....

I am tired....

I am tired of being a nice guy! I kid you not, I am the original Captain Save-A-Hoe of the world... It is always mandated for me to save my family, friends, anbullshn... First to save folk from trouble, brush out wildfires of arguments, first to volunteer, lend a ear to bullsh*t problems, and lastly give money out... Honestly, this sh*t is getting on my nerves... I know it's a cliche, but NICE GUYS FINISH F**king LAST... This is very very true!! I GET USED BY EVERY MOTHAF*CKA, I KNOW!!! (No Exceptions) It seems like when you are a nice guy, the world pulls happynesspants and sh*ts on you all day... You get no respect, appreciation, and love at the end... I have finally realized this crap, is taking a lot of time & $$$ from my own pursuit for happyness.. This year I am retiring the mindset of: "Here I come to save the day!"

I am tired of being lonely! This passing year, 2006, I was fortunate to be used by three b*tches. [Let me clarify, I don't use the word b*tch a lot, but if you in someway have hurt me. You'll be consider a b*tch!] Anyway, the women I have been running into here lately, turn out to be duds or have no interest in me... I am a good a** man, who would treat any woman like a queen. I would keep a woman satisfied mentally, emotionally, and physically... But, I never get that chance! I am not a scrub! I got a nice job with a promotion on the way, my own car, and I'm looking for a new apartment. Once again, I am a good man and I deserve a good woman!!! I mostly deserve love!!! I miss companionship/relationship with a woman. I constantly question myself, "Why can't I fall in love, like any other man?"

Last Thought/Moment of Clarity: I know as you read this, you may be thinking maybe I allow people to use/abuse me & 90% of the stuff that happens to me, I bring it own myself. I say, "Bulls*t"... I am a good person and attempt to live by the scriptures and the golden rule. This is who I've always been, as a child to this date as a man... I can't help the way I was raised/programmed... But, people constantly using me, whether I realize it or not is, is not honorable and it hurts...